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i had an interesting night. I went out to eat with Tony, and as we were leaving the restaurant, my mom calls to ask us to please come to the house as soon as possible. I was reluctant because today is my day to see my dad...but i finally gave in. When i get home, the surprise was Alexander :) <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 (my nephew...whom i havn't seem in over a month because of a family feud) It was surreal; everyone acting like normal but at the same time trying to fit in a month and a half of loss into a couple of hours.At first, he didnt realy seem to recognize us...my biggest fear...but then he seemed to warm up. I swear we played every game he loves at least twice...he even went through his "brushing teeth" ritual that he used to do like 3 times a day when he discovered bubble gum flavored toothpaste. I left before they took him though...couldnt do it. Then i went over a friends house...and Carlos was there. (My stepfather who left the house 2 weeks ago) how am i supposed to act? i dont get it. its like nothing happened. i dont really want to dwell on it...im just happy i got to spend time with Alexander, without having to suck up to his mother. I thought tonight would be sad for me...but it's actually helped me i think. I haven't cried all night!!! thats a big step :) ok, now that ive bored you all half to death, you must humor me and look at the pictures of my nephew...i know, i know, and im sorry....just do it. Tell me how cute he is.
