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I'm trying to have a positive outlook on today. Last night I did. Why not now?
Even typing on this white screen is killing me. I feel the pain in my teeth, even. I had a migraine from about 3:30 this morning until about 11:00 a.m. I woke up at about 4:30 crying, but not in an emotional way, just to relieve myself of the pain. Thankfully, I didn't have to be at work until 1:00 today. Now, I just feel hungover.
I made an attempt at opening mail and paying bills. It's pretty scary out there. Even the relatively light amount I need to pay the hospitals and such is a lot to me. I think things will be okay; it's just scary. But I did get a refund check for over-paying something I was required to pay (I know, right?), so that went into the bank immediately after I opened it (two months after receiving it). Why am I so scared of paying bills?! Nothing terrible terrible happened this time, but I certainly don't want it to.
So, yeah. Not squared away yet, but on my way, I guess. Staying at work until about 9:00 with friends tonight, which should be good. Just realized I didn't have everything from last month graded, but then I graded most of it.
My headache is exhausting me, and so are the bills, and, more so, myself for not dealing with them in a more timely manner simply because I am scared.
Even typing on this white screen is killing me. I feel the pain in my teeth, even. I had a migraine from about 3:30 this morning until about 11:00 a.m. I woke up at about 4:30 crying, but not in an emotional way, just to relieve myself of the pain. Thankfully, I didn't have to be at work until 1:00 today. Now, I just feel hungover.
I made an attempt at opening mail and paying bills. It's pretty scary out there. Even the relatively light amount I need to pay the hospitals and such is a lot to me. I think things will be okay; it's just scary. But I did get a refund check for over-paying something I was required to pay (I know, right?), so that went into the bank immediately after I opened it (two months after receiving it). Why am I so scared of paying bills?! Nothing terrible terrible happened this time, but I certainly don't want it to.
So, yeah. Not squared away yet, but on my way, I guess. Staying at work until about 9:00 with friends tonight, which should be good. Just realized I didn't have everything from last month graded, but then I graded most of it.
My headache is exhausting me, and so are the bills, and, more so, myself for not dealing with them in a more timely manner simply because I am scared.