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Its funny how you can have such a good time with friends and talk to people you know and care about and then come home and still feel so lonely. I am so lonely at this moment. Its hard knowing that there is this person I love that I can't be with anymore. And its even harder knowing hes hurting so much and I am the cause. But I know what I am doing is right. It has to be because the damage is already done. This is when I wish God would just talk to me, enough with the signs and whispering already. And its hard that I can't really explain how I am feeling to anyone, and everyone can try to help but I am so alone dealing with this. There is support, but I have to do this on my own. What I wouldn't give to be two again and have Mommy's kiss make it all better. At least I have friends to turn to and music to speak for me.