Ako'y Sandali Lang
Dear AJSS 2007,
When I thought about joining AJSS this summer, I didn't think it would affect me this much. Sure, I expected to meet all sorts of people (especially boys! Hehehe. Joke lang. Ang babaw naman 'nun), but I never thought we'd be as close-knit as we are now. I thought our relationship with each other would be shallow, and not as close as, say, that between me and my good friends in Miriam. But I was wrong, apparently. Nagagawa pala 'yung maging tunay na magkakaibigan sa loob ng 5 linggo lang. Odibs? Hanep naman.
I'm going to miss the stress that came with all that reading for Philo (grabe, hanggang ngayon, di pa ako tapos kay Kant! I suck), writing for English, pre-lab for Chem, cramming for Bio (!), and...well...simple understanding for Math. I'm thankful for the teachers, who did so much for us brats to learn [heehee], and for the really nice facilities of the Ateneo [<<< eew, did I just say "The"? Biro lang, Sir Waxx].
The thing I'm going to miss most of all though is the company. Ah, my babies. You don't know how much you've affected me. Wait, you probably do know, but how I feel is different. I just can't explain it quite well. And Evan was right. Everyone allowed herself/himself to be vulnerable, and all of us were able to be open to what we knew would be something undesirable or unpleasant - like not seeing each other for a long time. I couldn't imagine how sad we'd all be at the end of the seminar. Nagkatotoo 'yung sinabi ni Sir Waxx...noong nasa Escaler 'yung AJSS alumni, tapos tawa sila nang tawa, puro halakhak at sigawan dahil nagkita 'yung matagal nang di nagkita. Magiging, at naging ganoon nga tayo. [Yikee...I know some secret crushes because of the girls. I'll miss that]
I cried only once...twice if you count crying in my head. The first instance was when Evan was making his impromptu valedictory speech. It was so genuine, and I admire Evan for being coherent while overwhelmed with so many emotions. I showed no tears, but I cried inside.
The second instance was when Apo and Trish were leaving Chiara's house the other night. It was all-out sobbing, and it was partly due to Trish, who said the things I'd normally say when cying, and to Apo, with whom I found so easy to relate all throughout the seminar. And (I told Apo this) I cried like how I did that time my lola died. Di ako nagbibiro. Tears flowed for 20 seconds, then I stopped. Kasi naman, eh... And then Kyle started crying, then Paul, then Trish again...
These past two days, I've been depressed. I've been sooooo miserable! [Kahapon nga, birthday ng tatay ko. Lumabas kami tapos ang KJ ko pa, kasi panay sumpong (Sorry, Pa. Happy 53rd, by the way. We love you).] All day I'd just think of what we'd be doing at this hour or that hour, and then when I'd log on to Y!M and take part in a conference, I'd long for an ACTUAL conversation with you just so I could see Evan's smiling crying face, David DP's gay/Fanny Serrano impression, or just so you could know how hard I laugh when I hear Kyle's and Yves' freaky fits of laughter, "BOYology", "BOYoCHENistry", Ali's "overheat!", o 'yung walang kamatayang "Ano 'yung COLAYCO?"....[alam niyo na ang sagot diyan].
Ang labo ko talaga. Alam niyo ba? Just imagine this scene... I'm in my room, sitting quietly on the bed, finally realizing that AJSS is over. And then, after maybe 15 minutes, I'd be giggling like Hansky. Then soon enough I'd be laughing really hard because I'd always end up thinking of corny jokes and other things.
Maybe that's the way I am. Maybe that's why I haven't cried REALLY hard...because I can't seem to think of AJSS without thinking of the lighter stuff about it. And I think that's great. Because I know (and I have hope, trust me) that we'll be seeing each other again. Don't worry, okay?
We move on and we have hope. I know that'll happen because I told that to God before we graduated.
Thanks for everything, Sir Waxx.
Congrats and thanks, AJSS 40, my darn life partner. Do keep my laughter in your head when you're feeling sad.
P.S. IMPORTANT! Please do this for me...
Click ME and listen. This is the song that pretty much sums up how I feel about all 71 of you [+ Sir Waxx]. It's not sad, but it's hopeful and happy, which is the way I want to remember you, and hopefully, how you'll remember me.
You'll enjoy this best if you sit back, and DRINK IN the lyrics. [not DRINK in the lyrics, if you know what I mean. DRINK the lyrics IN. Yoooooohwn.]
Oh yeah, please comment. Aylabyu.
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Sandali Lang [by the Chillitees]
Ang bilis naman ng pangyayari
Gusto pa kitang makapiling
Di ba pwedeng pagbigyan nang konti?
Di naman ako nagmamadali
Sandali lang
Huwag kayong magpaalam
'Di tuluyung lumisan sa 'yong tagpi
May alaala naman tayong iiwan
Mayroong pag-uusapan 'pag nagkitang muli
*Isang araw, tayo'y magsasama
Huwag kang mainip
Ito'y sandali lang
Magtatawanan tulad ng dati
Huwag kang mainip
Ako'y sandali lang
Pagdating ng panahon ng pagkikita
Magkukuwentuhan ng magandang alaala
Na parang 'di nalayo sa isa't isa
Nakalimutan na'ng lahat ng pagdurusa
Salamat
Sabi nadama niyo
Na'ng pagmamahalang walang hangganan
Itatago it sa aking puso
Hanggang magkita tayo sa ating hintayan
(*)
EDIT: Wow. Taking down lyrics from scratch (listening to the song and pausing and playing it) is fuuuuun. Aylavet.
When I thought about joining AJSS this summer, I didn't think it would affect me this much. Sure, I expected to meet all sorts of people (especially boys! Hehehe. Joke lang. Ang babaw naman 'nun), but I never thought we'd be as close-knit as we are now. I thought our relationship with each other would be shallow, and not as close as, say, that between me and my good friends in Miriam. But I was wrong, apparently. Nagagawa pala 'yung maging tunay na magkakaibigan sa loob ng 5 linggo lang. Odibs? Hanep naman.
I'm going to miss the stress that came with all that reading for Philo (grabe, hanggang ngayon, di pa ako tapos kay Kant! I suck), writing for English, pre-lab for Chem, cramming for Bio (!), and...well...simple understanding for Math. I'm thankful for the teachers, who did so much for us brats to learn [heehee], and for the really nice facilities of the Ateneo [<<< eew, did I just say "The"? Biro lang, Sir Waxx].
The thing I'm going to miss most of all though is the company. Ah, my babies. You don't know how much you've affected me. Wait, you probably do know, but how I feel is different. I just can't explain it quite well. And Evan was right. Everyone allowed herself/himself to be vulnerable, and all of us were able to be open to what we knew would be something undesirable or unpleasant - like not seeing each other for a long time. I couldn't imagine how sad we'd all be at the end of the seminar. Nagkatotoo 'yung sinabi ni Sir Waxx...noong nasa Escaler 'yung AJSS alumni, tapos tawa sila nang tawa, puro halakhak at sigawan dahil nagkita 'yung matagal nang di nagkita. Magiging, at naging ganoon nga tayo. [Yikee...I know some secret crushes because of the girls. I'll miss that]
I cried only once...twice if you count crying in my head. The first instance was when Evan was making his impromptu valedictory speech. It was so genuine, and I admire Evan for being coherent while overwhelmed with so many emotions. I showed no tears, but I cried inside.
The second instance was when Apo and Trish were leaving Chiara's house the other night. It was all-out sobbing, and it was partly due to Trish, who said the things I'd normally say when cying, and to Apo, with whom I found so easy to relate all throughout the seminar. And (I told Apo this) I cried like how I did that time my lola died. Di ako nagbibiro. Tears flowed for 20 seconds, then I stopped. Kasi naman, eh... And then Kyle started crying, then Paul, then Trish again...
These past two days, I've been depressed. I've been sooooo miserable! [Kahapon nga, birthday ng tatay ko. Lumabas kami tapos ang KJ ko pa, kasi panay sumpong (Sorry, Pa. Happy 53rd, by the way. We love you).] All day I'd just think of what we'd be doing at this hour or that hour, and then when I'd log on to Y!M and take part in a conference, I'd long for an ACTUAL conversation with you just so I could see Evan's smiling crying face, David DP's gay/Fanny Serrano impression, or just so you could know how hard I laugh when I hear Kyle's and Yves' freaky fits of laughter, "BOYology", "BOYoCHENistry", Ali's "overheat!", o 'yung walang kamatayang "Ano 'yung COLAYCO?"....[alam niyo na ang sagot diyan].
Ang labo ko talaga. Alam niyo ba? Just imagine this scene... I'm in my room, sitting quietly on the bed, finally realizing that AJSS is over. And then, after maybe 15 minutes, I'd be giggling like Hansky. Then soon enough I'd be laughing really hard because I'd always end up thinking of corny jokes and other things.
Maybe that's the way I am. Maybe that's why I haven't cried REALLY hard...because I can't seem to think of AJSS without thinking of the lighter stuff about it. And I think that's great. Because I know (and I have hope, trust me) that we'll be seeing each other again. Don't worry, okay?
We move on and we have hope. I know that'll happen because I told that to God before we graduated.
Thanks for everything, Sir Waxx.
Congrats and thanks, AJSS 40, my darn life partner. Do keep my laughter in your head when you're feeling sad.
P.S. IMPORTANT! Please do this for me...
Click ME and listen. This is the song that pretty much sums up how I feel about all 71 of you [+ Sir Waxx]. It's not sad, but it's hopeful and happy, which is the way I want to remember you, and hopefully, how you'll remember me.
You'll enjoy this best if you sit back, and DRINK IN the lyrics. [not DRINK in the lyrics, if you know what I mean. DRINK the lyrics IN. Yoooooohwn.]
Oh yeah, please comment. Aylabyu.
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Sandali Lang [by the Chillitees]
Ang bilis naman ng pangyayari
Gusto pa kitang makapiling
Di ba pwedeng pagbigyan nang konti?
Di naman ako nagmamadali
Sandali lang
Huwag kayong magpaalam
'Di tuluyung lumisan sa 'yong tagpi
May alaala naman tayong iiwan
Mayroong pag-uusapan 'pag nagkitang muli
*Isang araw, tayo'y magsasama
Huwag kang mainip
Ito'y sandali lang
Magtatawanan tulad ng dati
Huwag kang mainip
Ako'y sandali lang
Pagdating ng panahon ng pagkikita
Magkukuwentuhan ng magandang alaala
Na parang 'di nalayo sa isa't isa
Nakalimutan na'ng lahat ng pagdurusa
Salamat
Sabi nadama niyo
Na'ng pagmamahalang walang hangganan
Itatago it sa aking puso
Hanggang magkita tayo sa ating hintayan
(*)
EDIT: Wow. Taking down lyrics from scratch (listening to the song and pausing and playing it) is fuuuuun. Aylavet.