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Funny, no matter how much I go out with my mates, do stuff, whatever, I thought leaving school would be funner than this.
I've spent far too many days at home, like, granted I've been out a lot, but I've also been at home a lot and, I don't know. I'm hanging around with the same people all the time, and it's getting boring now. Don't get me wrong, i love my mates, but just need something new.
I'm thinking of relearning guitar, or learning bass. Or something new. I'm just losing the will to do anything.
I'm also losing my interest in writing, I love doing it but it's just so much effort. And the whole photography thing, I'm still very much into it, just, have no motivation.
Also, getting a job is so much harder than I thought it was before. When you're in school ya think it's gonna be dead easy but then you leave, start looking and everyone else is looking too and all the vacancies that were previously available get filled up so quickly, I'm now doing something I told myself I wouldn't, and am looking for a job in Sainsburys. They have twelve vacancies. Unfortunately, that's me and all of my mates are competing for those places as well as the rest of bloody England. Fucking... Sainsburys? For fuck sake.
I'm not meaning to sound like a complete snob but come on :/
Not exactly my calling in life. Need something interesting that'll make me actually want to work.
Also being single never bothered me before, but six months? It's really taking it's toll. Kind of, if you get what I mean. Like. I want the security if you get me? Met a Bam Margera look alike last night, nearly died, he was so fit, but just, way, way too... I don't know some of my mates have behavioural problems like they smash up cars and are racist and... It's not so much that I mind, but it's the fact that as much as i love them I don't want a boyfriend with behavioural problems.
I have enough problems like that myself. If I were to go out with someone who also had behavioural problems (I've only just learnt to bloody control my own. Bahaha, something else everyone never knew about me apart from everything. Fuck off.) the world would be completely fucked. Fucked, fucked, fucked.
EPIC FAIL AT LIFE.
I've spent far too many days at home, like, granted I've been out a lot, but I've also been at home a lot and, I don't know. I'm hanging around with the same people all the time, and it's getting boring now. Don't get me wrong, i love my mates, but just need something new.
I'm thinking of relearning guitar, or learning bass. Or something new. I'm just losing the will to do anything.
I'm also losing my interest in writing, I love doing it but it's just so much effort. And the whole photography thing, I'm still very much into it, just, have no motivation.
Also, getting a job is so much harder than I thought it was before. When you're in school ya think it's gonna be dead easy but then you leave, start looking and everyone else is looking too and all the vacancies that were previously available get filled up so quickly, I'm now doing something I told myself I wouldn't, and am looking for a job in Sainsburys. They have twelve vacancies. Unfortunately, that's me and all of my mates are competing for those places as well as the rest of bloody England. Fucking... Sainsburys? For fuck sake.
I'm not meaning to sound like a complete snob but come on :/
Not exactly my calling in life. Need something interesting that'll make me actually want to work.
Also being single never bothered me before, but six months? It's really taking it's toll. Kind of, if you get what I mean. Like. I want the security if you get me? Met a Bam Margera look alike last night, nearly died, he was so fit, but just, way, way too... I don't know some of my mates have behavioural problems like they smash up cars and are racist and... It's not so much that I mind, but it's the fact that as much as i love them I don't want a boyfriend with behavioural problems.
I have enough problems like that myself. If I were to go out with someone who also had behavioural problems (I've only just learnt to bloody control my own. Bahaha, something else everyone never knew about me apart from everything. Fuck off.) the world would be completely fucked. Fucked, fucked, fucked.
EPIC FAIL AT LIFE.