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really really really really really really really really really confused.....i thought this thing might be over soon, and now i have no freaking clue.....i mean i know it's not something that will end in a couple days, but now i get the feeling that it's gonna be a couple more weeks.....and for some reason, i thought i would be before then.....now i just have no idea.....i mean maybe i got my hopes up a little bit because of things we talked about and because things are starting to seem better between us as friends, but now i get the feeling that this whole friends thing is gonna last longer then i anticipated.....so now i really have no idea what to think, i have no idea what i'm feeling because obviously what i was feeling didn't really change anything, and i have no idea what's going on except we are friends, best friends.....i have no problem with that, i just think i got my hopes up because of what happened, and for some reason, my gut is now shooting all those hopes into tiny tiny tiny tiny pieces.....and all that does to me, is make me think that this thing is gonna last longer then i thought because i thought we were close, and now i'm not so sure.....i could be wrong, and i could just be rambling like i usually do, but i'm just really confused and i wish this was easier and i wish this wasn't so frustrating.....