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What I want most is to feel like I'm not just getting through the day. When I wake up, all I think about is what I have to do to make it through the day, just to get back to lying down, rinse, wash, repeat. I don't get to live. I don't get to do things I love to do. All I think of is pain, how to try and make it through the pain, the nausea, the collections agencies calling, all while trying to stay strong and tell myself and everyone that I can do this.
It's really hard and I don't know if I can do this.
It's really hard and I don't know if I can do this.