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i'm wasting time at the libraby i'm so out of it... thinking about that sexy guy at bookmens, wow how come their always awsome people at bookmens. wow my brain is reling. my computer isn't working at home... i feel like i'm growing older like i'm 60 yearold or something i don't get myself... thinking about the future and what it was going to be like. my 24 year old cousin came over last night... it was weird i mean we're related but we know almost nothing about each other, i ranbled about london... i faulted chemistry and algbra. i'm so fuck but i need out of high school asap shit i don't want to go bacl for another year.. god what the fuck am i doing with me life? i bet mckenzie never asked that question. she always knew what she wanted and went for it. i wish i had that kind of modativation... fucking 2004 i'm gunna be so happy it's over. i don't want more fucking drama. shit shit shit what am i doing?! it really makes me want to kill myself but i can't and shouldn't... i wouldn't put my mom though that. it makes me think of larma project "go home and hug your kids and tell them you love them, and then it stuck me, she can't go home and do that! her kid is died!" i always think of that part. my heart feels like its being pulled out and my back is on fire... distory my body so my soul can be free of this world...
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Natalie
2. Natey (family)
3. Nadz (only suzie)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. SunSorched
2. TuneCookies
3. LCCM911
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. lips
2. eyes
3. my scars
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. everything
2. everything
3. everything
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Cubana
2. Irish
3. Russian
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. people
2. government
3. my future and failing at it
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. juice
2. friends
3. water
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. pants
2. shrts
3. hello kitty underwear
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists (at the moment)):
1. cake
2. voilent femmies
3. placebo
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. I'll try- Jonatha Brooke
2. Blisser in the Sun- Violent Femmies
3. Morning Pure- Placebo
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Living out of my parents house for a supstancle amount of times
2. having a real job
3. living in london england
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. nothing
2. a kiss
3. to me held
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. i love my life
2. i have a scars all over my right leg
3. i sleep with a body pillow
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. eyes
2. backs
3. their soul
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. be who my dad wants me to be
2. love people the way they want me to
3. understand people and the meaning of life
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. art
2. writing
3. being with friends and having fun
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. a good meal
2. love somebody i'm not allowed to have
3. feel better about my life
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. fashion designer
2. stripper (part time only)
3. film critic
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Anywhere but there (that is that has more or less a stable econmy)
2. " "
3. " "
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Anuk
2. Honey
3. Malicy
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. travel as many places as i can
2. adopt a kid from a thrid world country
3. have a house and beautiful things to leave to my kid
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Natalie
2. Natey (family)
3. Nadz (only suzie)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. SunSorched
2. TuneCookies
3. LCCM911
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. lips
2. eyes
3. my scars
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. everything
2. everything
3. everything
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Cubana
2. Irish
3. Russian
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. people
2. government
3. my future and failing at it
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. juice
2. friends
3. water
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. pants
2. shrts
3. hello kitty underwear
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists (at the moment)):
1. cake
2. voilent femmies
3. placebo
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. I'll try- Jonatha Brooke
2. Blisser in the Sun- Violent Femmies
3. Morning Pure- Placebo
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Living out of my parents house for a supstancle amount of times
2. having a real job
3. living in london england
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. nothing
2. a kiss
3. to me held
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. i love my life
2. i have a scars all over my right leg
3. i sleep with a body pillow
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. eyes
2. backs
3. their soul
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. be who my dad wants me to be
2. love people the way they want me to
3. understand people and the meaning of life
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. art
2. writing
3. being with friends and having fun
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. a good meal
2. love somebody i'm not allowed to have
3. feel better about my life
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. fashion designer
2. stripper (part time only)
3. film critic
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Anywhere but there (that is that has more or less a stable econmy)
2. " "
3. " "
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Anuk
2. Honey
3. Malicy
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. travel as many places as i can
2. adopt a kid from a thrid world country
3. have a house and beautiful things to leave to my kid