Jul 02, 2012 00:36
Im going to leave Alaska.
Im not supposed to be here.
Im lonely but never alone.
I suck at this job.
Im not going to meet my financial goals here.
I feel like... being here...
Im not going to gain anything
but a loss of time.
Im not spending time out here.
IM JUST WASTING IT.
I want to be loved.
I want to be happy.
I dont want to waste anymore time.
I want to pay off my suspended license.
I want to go to school.
I want to do what Im truly supposed to be doing.
I had a dream...
I was in LA but it was also Silverdale.
I had been with various of my coworkers
but I ditched them when I ran into my kitsap friends.
Then I ran into Donald Glover
and followed him around
until he came face to face with me and told me
that Im not where Im supposed to be.
Crazy shit, right?
It's not the only dream I've had that has tried to tell me to go home.
I just didnt want to admit defeat.
Fuck, I dont know.
I just know that I want to leave.
I've wanted to leave since Ive arrived.