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i was reading this thing from the catholic medical association about homosexuality thinking it would be funny...but it was really just revolting. it reminded me too much of high school and why i would always get frustrated sitting in religion class year after year being told homosexuality is wrong. not even just religion class...but everyday...we had an entire discussion about it in french class with super homophobic miss jedda and i almost killed her because the things she was saying were so painfully closed minded. AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!! more reminders of why im glad i never have to set foot in a catholic school again.
i just remembered that my parents might be going on a cruise for their anniversary...and my mom said that memere or pepere might be coming down that week to stay with us. i am going to do absolutely everything in my power to prevent him from coming here. fuck no. i used to wonder if i'd cry at his funeral...now i know i wont. i would not feel comfortable leaving him and my sister alone in the house. i think i have to work that week, but it shouldnt be a problem since it'll be the first week it'll be during the day. me and lauren can take care of ourselves...been doing it for years...we dont need someone to come and babysit us...especially not him. i will suffer through waking up at 5:30 every morning and making sure she gets on the damn bus just so he isnt here. if memere comes it wouldnt be so bad...but theres no FUCKING way im letting him come here while my parents are away.
i should really go to bed...i have to wake up in about 4 hours. maybe i can time it right so i get 3 hours and take advantage of that whole sleep cycle thing. hmmm...that would mean going to be now so that i should fall asleep by 3.
dude, theres so much more i want to rant about...things that just keep popping into my head...having flashbacks to discussions in mr reeds religion class...death penalty...abortion...the fact that my sister is going on a pro-life march in dc soon...the possiblity of pepere staying here for a week...my mind is all over the place...she trusts him...she doesnt know...i know...my brain exploded and slimely chunks are sliding down my bedroom wall.
go to sleep jen. ok.
i just remembered that my parents might be going on a cruise for their anniversary...and my mom said that memere or pepere might be coming down that week to stay with us. i am going to do absolutely everything in my power to prevent him from coming here. fuck no. i used to wonder if i'd cry at his funeral...now i know i wont. i would not feel comfortable leaving him and my sister alone in the house. i think i have to work that week, but it shouldnt be a problem since it'll be the first week it'll be during the day. me and lauren can take care of ourselves...been doing it for years...we dont need someone to come and babysit us...especially not him. i will suffer through waking up at 5:30 every morning and making sure she gets on the damn bus just so he isnt here. if memere comes it wouldnt be so bad...but theres no FUCKING way im letting him come here while my parents are away.
i should really go to bed...i have to wake up in about 4 hours. maybe i can time it right so i get 3 hours and take advantage of that whole sleep cycle thing. hmmm...that would mean going to be now so that i should fall asleep by 3.
dude, theres so much more i want to rant about...things that just keep popping into my head...having flashbacks to discussions in mr reeds religion class...death penalty...abortion...the fact that my sister is going on a pro-life march in dc soon...the possiblity of pepere staying here for a week...my mind is all over the place...she trusts him...she doesnt know...i know...my brain exploded and slimely chunks are sliding down my bedroom wall.
go to sleep jen. ok.