Lifes so Grand!
Ross and I have officailly broken up. Wasnt excatly my choice, but it had to be. My good friend Kristi told me he was gonna break up with me to go out with his ex,but when he asked her if she'd ever go back out with him, she said no. So because he didnt want to be single, he decieded that he didnt want to break up with me.
I was so upset when I heard this. I didnt know what to think or what to feel. Still dont. Well,when I first heard about it, I was super super pissed.I honestly wanted to kill him. The next day I was just sad about it, and since the day after that, I have just been depressed about it.
I thought/think I love him, and i thought he loved me,apparently I was wrong.I dont understand how I could be so stupid to have believed him. Others have said it to me. Why did I choose to care and believe him? The first time I fall in love this happens. Almost makes me wanna go Lesbian. And I would, but I'm not, lesbians are gross, and I could never do that to myself. Although the plus of it would be that I could never have kids!
Wow,I told my mom I was going lez, and you know what she said... 'I still want one or two grandkids from you'....... what a weirdo. Whats bad is I think she was serious..lol. jk.
I think I'll just have to black out everything about Ross, just forget him completly. It'll be so much easier. And maybe I'd stop feeling so sad...
How is it that I can hate AND love someone all at the same time... DAMNED EMOTIONS!!!
I was so upset when I heard this. I didnt know what to think or what to feel. Still dont. Well,when I first heard about it, I was super super pissed.I honestly wanted to kill him. The next day I was just sad about it, and since the day after that, I have just been depressed about it.
I thought/think I love him, and i thought he loved me,apparently I was wrong.I dont understand how I could be so stupid to have believed him. Others have said it to me. Why did I choose to care and believe him? The first time I fall in love this happens. Almost makes me wanna go Lesbian. And I would, but I'm not, lesbians are gross, and I could never do that to myself. Although the plus of it would be that I could never have kids!
Wow,I told my mom I was going lez, and you know what she said... 'I still want one or two grandkids from you'....... what a weirdo. Whats bad is I think she was serious..lol. jk.
I think I'll just have to black out everything about Ross, just forget him completly. It'll be so much easier. And maybe I'd stop feeling so sad...
How is it that I can hate AND love someone all at the same time... DAMNED EMOTIONS!!!