just another manic monday!!! Wish it was sunday..that's my fun day

[tummybugz]

Good morning everyone. While the rest of America is off to celebrate the life of the great Martin Luther King I am working. Most of the black people that worked here took off from work today, personally I think we should have rallied together and demanded the day off. My last day off was New Years day and the next time we have a holiday off is Memorial day! You would think that they would give us one extra day somewhere in the middle. Like Valentines day or Saint Patricks day. I don't know anything! My birthday is this coming Sunday...I'm going to be 22. Scary how fast time goes by. School starts this week and I'm extremely excited because I am starting a program that will allow me to become certified in Drug/Alcohol abuse. I would love to become a counselor. This program is probably going to cause me to have to spend more time in school but I think it's worth it. I'm also going to volunteer at Jacobi Medical center in their psychiatric ward. It's only 1 or 2 nights a week...just so i can get a feel for working in a psychiatric emergency room. It's a rough job, and I want to know before hand if it's something i'd want to do and could handle because before I know it...I'll be deciding what I want to get my masters in and what school I'll be going to. I just want to finish my undergraduates degree. I don't have much longer to go...I just have to push myself. I upped the amount of classes I'm taking this semester. I really don't have a life now. I miss a lot of people also. I don't even have birthday plans, nor do I have the desire to celebrate! I really wanted to see Wicked on broadway! but it's a lot of money and a lot to ask for one person to take me. My mother is taking me on a shopping spree tonight though. So I am a excited about that. Now that I'm turning 22 it's causing me to wonder if I made the smart choice of growing up so young and so fast or if I should have waited. I partied so hard when I was 16 and 17...doing drugs, boys, drinking excessivly....name it I did it and fucked it up. To be honest I don't think I turned out so bad! I'm more responsible than most of my friends....I work 45 to 50 hours a week. Plus, I go to school. But I don't have it in me to go out and party anymore. Maybe it will come back to me...but I am perfectly fine with simply going to a movie, playing pool and smoking pot. I don't like drinking and that's what most people like to do so I'm damned if I do...damned if I don't.

I don't know...getting older isn't as fun as I thought it would be.