Don't tell my mom but......
Ryan and I have called off our SE Asia trip which, at first, I was heartily disappointed about but now, I'm really happy. Instead we've decided we're going to fly into Chicago on July 3rd, rent a car and suprise my family at the fourth of July parade.(they always sit in the same spot!) But don't tell my family!
Also, I'm in the midst of a little dilemma. I've come to realize through living in Korea, that I'm really much more of a homebody, hang out and do crafts with my mom kind of person, and that what i desire (and have desired for years) is structure and stability. The kind where I have a job that I like, in a city I like and I can visit my friends and fam regularly. The kind of stability to go to the doctor when I need to. Or have a house I like where I can have a room of my own to make stuff in. That kind of thing.
In response to this deep need, i've been thinking of moving to Chicago after staying at home for a month. Once there I could hopefully find a job with a non-profit and apply for my MFA, like I've always wished to do. i could be near my fam (my ailing granma for one) and near good friends. i would be in a city that feels alive and familiar.
but here's the trouble: ryan really hates chicago.he wants to teach english in europe for at least "one more year" after which he too wants to come back home, find gainful employment, and all that settling down stuff.
Do I go with him (I'm not sure if he'll come with me if i decide on chicago)? Do I go to Chicago anyway, with or without him? Can I delay one more year of what i want to be doing to be with someone I love? accccchhhhhhh! I don't know! If I were advising a friend, I'd say, "go to Chicago. you only live once" blah blah. But it's not that simple, right?
Also, I'm in the midst of a little dilemma. I've come to realize through living in Korea, that I'm really much more of a homebody, hang out and do crafts with my mom kind of person, and that what i desire (and have desired for years) is structure and stability. The kind where I have a job that I like, in a city I like and I can visit my friends and fam regularly. The kind of stability to go to the doctor when I need to. Or have a house I like where I can have a room of my own to make stuff in. That kind of thing.
In response to this deep need, i've been thinking of moving to Chicago after staying at home for a month. Once there I could hopefully find a job with a non-profit and apply for my MFA, like I've always wished to do. i could be near my fam (my ailing granma for one) and near good friends. i would be in a city that feels alive and familiar.
but here's the trouble: ryan really hates chicago.he wants to teach english in europe for at least "one more year" after which he too wants to come back home, find gainful employment, and all that settling down stuff.
Do I go with him (I'm not sure if he'll come with me if i decide on chicago)? Do I go to Chicago anyway, with or without him? Can I delay one more year of what i want to be doing to be with someone I love? accccchhhhhhh! I don't know! If I were advising a friend, I'd say, "go to Chicago. you only live once" blah blah. But it's not that simple, right?