its been a year
and i can still remember that day like it was yesterday.
i still remember coming out of my room into my kitchen where my mum was sitting with her head down, eating her pancakes and sniffling.
before i even got a chance to ask what was wrong my mum told me that you had died, the night before. at 11:50pm.
i remember sitting down and not beleivng it was true.
it felt like some kinda bad dream.
my dad was saying how he didnt know it could happen. and he kept repeating it over && over again. and i told him to just shut up, because he wasnt doing us any favours by repeating himself.
i remember going into school in pure silence.
and telling everyone what was wrong.
and natalie giving my that teddy bear, and me not letting go all day.
and almost bursting out in tears during science.
and i remember the funeral.
i'd kept it all bottled up till then, then something that someone had said just unplugged me && i just let it all out.
the tears just poured out of me like a tap.
i still cant beleive its been a year.
its flown past.
i feel sorry for your mum.
how can she celebrate christmas when she lost her son 10 days before christmas?
its hard enough for me to celebrate it && I was just your friend!
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god.
i cant beleive its been a year.
we all miss you.
we hope you arent suffering anymore.