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So my suspicions have been all but confirmed about Mark. He texted me yesterday to set up a lunch date. Warning bells went off in my head already. People only set up lunch like that if you're either extremely busy (I'm not) or if someone needs to talk. He just wanted to apologize for dicking me over Sunday and he explained how sick he was with a terrific hangover. So I asked if that was why he called me at 12:30 when we were supposed to hang out earlier and explained that he likes to keep his friends separate, if he's with someone he doesn't want to get distracted by other friends when all his attention should be on who he's with, blah blah. WTF?! How the fuck is that supposed to make me feel? He can't take 2 minutes out of his hangover to properly cancel plans? I'm sure if he didn't want her to know he was calling me he could have waited for her to use the bathroom or something. So yeah, that totally made me feel shitty. i think I should be done with him. I am weak though, so if I can't get shit back with Nate I can always use Mark as a decent lay. It's just so incredible that we can go through something scary together and have me think that he's the guy I should be with and then -boom- that feeling is just gone.
If I had never stopped in to say hi to Nate a last week I bet I would have just ingnored my questions about Mark and just enjoyed myself. Like i said, I'm weak. I did visit Nate after lunch and told him everything, he seemed sympathetic and we may hang out this weekend. Whatever happens with either of them I hope shit just works out for the best. Who knows, maybe Nate and I will end up together and it will just be all sunshine and cake. Or who knows, all this shit with Mark could be a misunderstanding.... but I'm not sure. Hell, I'm not sure about anything now.
If I had never stopped in to say hi to Nate a last week I bet I would have just ingnored my questions about Mark and just enjoyed myself. Like i said, I'm weak. I did visit Nate after lunch and told him everything, he seemed sympathetic and we may hang out this weekend. Whatever happens with either of them I hope shit just works out for the best. Who knows, maybe Nate and I will end up together and it will just be all sunshine and cake. Or who knows, all this shit with Mark could be a misunderstanding.... but I'm not sure. Hell, I'm not sure about anything now.