I can't believe it.
So today started out bad and ended much worse. I went to work this morning at 6:30 and I get there and Margy (the opener) was running a little behind. She had a bunch of stuff she hadn't done yet. She had closed the night before and then opened for herself. We had a load of product to put away, we were really busy and the district manager was coming in at 10 am. So I was stressed out about getting everything done before she got in. So Jen my manager came in at 9 and I felt a little better but was still stressed out. So we're getting ready for all that and right after Margy comes back from lunch at just after 10 my store manager comes over and tells Margy to watch the kiosk so I can go to his office and talk to Jen. So I go into his office thinking I'm in trouble. (which would be weird because she had just told me how much she loves me because I have really helped her out in the past few weeks.) So I go in and Jen starts off by telling me that I'm not in trouble and she's not in trouble. and I say so whats up. and the second she makes eye contact with me she starts crying. I said "Oh my god Jen whats wrong" She said " I don't know how to tell you this honey but Jeff just told me that Bronson died last night" I just started crying like crazy. For those of you who don't know Bronson is my assistant manager and he's one of the people I am closest too in the Kiosk. He's also the one who always says I'm his favorite and that I'm the only one who likes him )not true just what he says) So Jen wanted to tell me first so I could have some time before Kim got there. Then just as I get my composure and go back out to work. Bronsons neighbor gets there and tells us that he shot himself. So I head right back into the office to cry some more. It hit too close to home. Especially since I have been missing Sean really badly lately. I can't believe he's gone. He was such an awesome guy and last time I worked with him he seemed happy. I hate this and I don't know what tomarrow is going to be like. He was supposed to be my pre-closer tomarrow. Now the Safeway, Starbucks regional manager is going to be my pre-closer. I miss Bronson already and I don't know how I'm going to get through this with my sanity.