love is watching someone die
ok well, after looking through the past 180 entries of my friends page (I guess it has been that long since I've looked) I've decided to just ask a few questions because I honestly want to see what you all think. my computer went crazy the other day, so no pictures, sorry
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2. Yeah, I write a lot. Usually just spontaneous prose, you know, 'kerouac reincarnate' (hack hack). But a bit of poetry, too. I don't really have those standard "today I went to school" bullshit kinda entries.
3. I'd probably be thinking about if I had indeed reached my absolute happiness and reached that stage of my life where I saw everything the way that it should be seen and appreciated. Then I'd probably smile and then die, more than likely. Hahah
4. I WISH I were a senior.
5. I remember dreaming about this house that I've dreamt about for a few years, and everytime I dream about it something new is happening, yet it all feels so familiar & the people that are there are all different yet all doing something that feels right & wrong all at the same time and it's a quite uncomfortable dream, because everytime I go into a different room I always feel like I shouldn't be there because they're doing something that shouldn't be done. Weird.
6. Things I should have said to people yet didn't have enough nerve to, political happenings, and various situations that I wished had gone differently than they had. Also just thinking about getting older and being alone. A lot of the time I'm just up watching movies on the boob tube, really.
7. It'd be a picture of the wild west, of the mountains being a tanish brown colour, with a coyote howling and the stars being really beautiful and all of the constellations are there and the moon is almost blinding 'cos it's so bright, and when you look at it you just feel complete, because that's what I hope for when my life ends, that I feel complete and whole with myself.
Like everyone else; I, too, enjoyed this very much.
PS: I HOPE YOURE READY FOR JOHNNY CASH. :)
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thatd be nice to read some of your kerouac reincarnate prose.
haha. thats a nice thought to think before you die. hopefully you'd be able to fully contemplate it though before you do.
you'll be a senior soon enough..and then get ready to start everything all over again.
that is so cool how you dream about the same house..i dont think ive ever done anything like that. they are doing things that shouldn't be done? you should see if you can lucid dream and go into all the rooms. thatd be awesome.
i wonder why tvs are called boob tubes. honestly i'd like to see them referred to as the "telly" again. things you dont say and wish you did, i hate worrying about that.
i'm glad you enjoyed this a lot. your painting sounds very complete, definitely.
i am more than ready for mr. Cash. i walk the line.
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& I'll let you read some of my writing, if you're ever interested. :)
"life in itself is a complete thing, a cycle that consumes itself only to reincarnate." Indeed.
Let's hang out joaquin, you're such a cool guy.
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it sounds like you are referring to a boddhisattva, the whole completed journey but still being around type thing. Sometimes i wonder if its truly possible to hit the ceiling of it all and become "enlightened" and all, because you always have to learn more and more, but maybe "enlightened" is just more of a realization of the truths of the world and what that entails for all sentient life. i dunno. does anyone truly?
and yes, life is a cycle of cycles, cycling together like a bicycle race cycling on a circular track with loops and corkscrews cycling and cycling forever. amen.
and yes, we are definitely hanging out soon. johnny cash, amen again.
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