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I have absolutely no self control. I have gained so much weight lately. I just eat and eat. It’s so horrible. I have to wear a size medium shirt now. I actually cried last night when I stepped on the scale. 173! Yes, 173 lbs. I haven’t been this big in years. It’s so horrible.
Geeze, I was just watching people find out they were going to be grandparents and I started crying. I’m never going to tell my parents that. And I want a baby so bad. I know I can’t have one now, I can hardly take care of myself. But one day I would like to have a baby. I would adopt of course. I would give my love to a baby whose real parents didn’t want to love it or couldn’t love it for some other reason.
And I ended up crying earlier also watching happy couples on TV. When am I going to be a happy couple. Why can’t I find a good guy? Why can’t I be happy?
“The greatest feeling you’ll ever know is to love and be loved in return” maybe one day.