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i never write anymore. not here, not anywhere. maybe that's why i feel like i'm losing my mind. the smallest, most insignificant things get to me in the worst way. i am way too critical, both of myself and others - it's starting to get ridiculous. i am seriously thinking about making an appointment with a psychologist just to get an objective opinion.
on a different note, there are some things in my life right now that i am truly happy about. for one thing, i'm dating someone. his name is brett and he is one of the nicest people i know. he makes me laugh in the best possible way and is just so easy going and relaxing to be with. he is so open about whatever is on his mind and pulls me out of my shell so that i'm able to be honest with him about my feelings, too.
i've actually been wanting to write about him for a while, but i've been scared to jinx it. we've been hanging out for over 2 months, but have only been dating for 2 weeks so i'm still not a hundred percent secure in the relationship. knowing me, i probably never will be, but that's ok. i'm trying to just enjoy the time i spend with him and not think too far into the future. the main reason it took us so long to finally date is that he lives an hour away and we don't have enough time to see each other as much as we'd like. in the end we both just decided that it was better to make the effort to be together rather than stop seeing each other altogether, and that was that.
as for my friends, i've basically detached myself completely from the people at school. it just feels too much like high school and i honestly don't have the energy for that anymore. my three best friends from norway came to visit for reading break and it reminded me just how much i miss them and everyone else back home. but it was my decision to move back to vancouver and i still think it was the right thing to do. it's just taking me a long time to adjust to the fact that it's a completely different experience than i remember from growing up and spending summers here.
on a different note, there are some things in my life right now that i am truly happy about. for one thing, i'm dating someone. his name is brett and he is one of the nicest people i know. he makes me laugh in the best possible way and is just so easy going and relaxing to be with. he is so open about whatever is on his mind and pulls me out of my shell so that i'm able to be honest with him about my feelings, too.
i've actually been wanting to write about him for a while, but i've been scared to jinx it. we've been hanging out for over 2 months, but have only been dating for 2 weeks so i'm still not a hundred percent secure in the relationship. knowing me, i probably never will be, but that's ok. i'm trying to just enjoy the time i spend with him and not think too far into the future. the main reason it took us so long to finally date is that he lives an hour away and we don't have enough time to see each other as much as we'd like. in the end we both just decided that it was better to make the effort to be together rather than stop seeing each other altogether, and that was that.
as for my friends, i've basically detached myself completely from the people at school. it just feels too much like high school and i honestly don't have the energy for that anymore. my three best friends from norway came to visit for reading break and it reminded me just how much i miss them and everyone else back home. but it was my decision to move back to vancouver and i still think it was the right thing to do. it's just taking me a long time to adjust to the fact that it's a completely different experience than i remember from growing up and spending summers here.