general thoughts on life
i think my new pills are messing with me more than they're helping me. i'm forever and always tired. and for an hour or so before i fall asleep, i'm completely incoherant and don't remember much. and considering how often i fall asleep these days, the incoherant hour really leaves me with very little productive time during a given 24 hour period. it's rather annoying considering i'm trying to work 30 hour weeks while taking 2 classes and 2 labs.
the other night i started hysterically crying while trying to do my homework for my rocks for jocks class. i was rambling on about how i don't really want to be back in school and how i should just forget about ever getting a degree and other such jibberish. eliot, bless his poor soul, has been bearing the brunt of my evil-molten-crazy and has very much been taking it in stride, but sometime's he's just at a loss. like this time, for example. he tried saying things, but it just make me more and more upset, to the point where i left bed & went to spend the night on the couch. he gave me a minute or two of sobbing on the couch, then came out and just put his head on my shoulder and didn't say anything while i got the last little bits of crying out. i love that kid oodles.
people in cars are idiots 90% of the time when they have to do anything around a biker. just treat us like a car!!! if i'm making a left, and you're coming straight in the opposite dirrection, don't wait for me to go!! you go!!! you have the right of way!!!! when you stop, it means i have to stop, because i'm already slowing down so you can go, and it's a lot easier for me to jsut slow down, than to come to a complete stop in the middle of the 4 lane 4 way intersection!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and if you have 3 other lanes you can be in, don't get pissed at me for being in one of them when i don't have a bikelane!!!!!!!!!!! and i don't care how pissed you are, don't ever ever ever ever ever honk at a biker....it scares the crap out of us...especially if we're not doing anything wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm starting to notice a distinct difference in my age-group: the ones who think they can still drink and party like it's college, and the one's who have grown up. now, it's rare that i openly consider myself a grown up, but when there's a group of people in my house who "want to play drinking games!!!!!!!" and actually have the nerve to mock me for not wanting to play and stay sober to make sure everyone else gets home OK (not to mention babysit the bunch of drunken people I barely know who are in MY house), i don't think I'm being "a loser" or "stuck-up" ... I think I'm being responsible. Which sucks, because as previously stated, i don't like feeling old/responsible/etc. It would be one thing if these kids were, like, 2 or 3 years younger, but they were my age and acting like this! Not all of them, there were really 2 main offenders...i dunno. it bugged me.
i've also got a work situation i'm not overly happy about, but i've done enough complaining for today. i'm gonna go make some nachos and wait for my schmookie to get home. he got a haircut, which upsets me cuz i like his hair longer. i guess i'll get over it in a week or 3.
the other night i started hysterically crying while trying to do my homework for my rocks for jocks class. i was rambling on about how i don't really want to be back in school and how i should just forget about ever getting a degree and other such jibberish. eliot, bless his poor soul, has been bearing the brunt of my evil-molten-crazy and has very much been taking it in stride, but sometime's he's just at a loss. like this time, for example. he tried saying things, but it just make me more and more upset, to the point where i left bed & went to spend the night on the couch. he gave me a minute or two of sobbing on the couch, then came out and just put his head on my shoulder and didn't say anything while i got the last little bits of crying out. i love that kid oodles.
people in cars are idiots 90% of the time when they have to do anything around a biker. just treat us like a car!!! if i'm making a left, and you're coming straight in the opposite dirrection, don't wait for me to go!! you go!!! you have the right of way!!!! when you stop, it means i have to stop, because i'm already slowing down so you can go, and it's a lot easier for me to jsut slow down, than to come to a complete stop in the middle of the 4 lane 4 way intersection!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and if you have 3 other lanes you can be in, don't get pissed at me for being in one of them when i don't have a bikelane!!!!!!!!!!! and i don't care how pissed you are, don't ever ever ever ever ever honk at a biker....it scares the crap out of us...especially if we're not doing anything wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm starting to notice a distinct difference in my age-group: the ones who think they can still drink and party like it's college, and the one's who have grown up. now, it's rare that i openly consider myself a grown up, but when there's a group of people in my house who "want to play drinking games!!!!!!!" and actually have the nerve to mock me for not wanting to play and stay sober to make sure everyone else gets home OK (not to mention babysit the bunch of drunken people I barely know who are in MY house), i don't think I'm being "a loser" or "stuck-up" ... I think I'm being responsible. Which sucks, because as previously stated, i don't like feeling old/responsible/etc. It would be one thing if these kids were, like, 2 or 3 years younger, but they were my age and acting like this! Not all of them, there were really 2 main offenders...i dunno. it bugged me.
i've also got a work situation i'm not overly happy about, but i've done enough complaining for today. i'm gonna go make some nachos and wait for my schmookie to get home. he got a haircut, which upsets me cuz i like his hair longer. i guess i'll get over it in a week or 3.