and then the skys open and god said oh i hate u krystal.
Sometimes i feel like...when is it gonna be me?....when am i gonna get to get what everybody elas has?...
when do i get to find the one that i get to be happy with i loook back and its like did i have it and lose it?...
cause thats what it feels like. so some days i feel like i dont need it and i dont even care if one day i get it cause im me. then i look around and see it everywhere and stop and stare and think why cant i be sooooo Lucky like those ppl.
right now im hurting cause i feel ignored and forgotten by HIM. I dont want to give up on him but its like how much more can i sit here and take it really does suck that i cant get threw to him he is like the ONLY guy i cant figure out and it bothers me i want to just sit with him all night and talk about whats going on in that lil head of his ya know!...but i cant work with him if he wont work with me. you know?.... i hate that i cant be there for him when or if he needs me. HE WONT ASK. i need him to need me. this whole situation just, sucks.
its taking a tole on me. fuck man. i hate this feeling its a feeling that i never wanted to feel again and here i am i FELL and its gonna take me awhile to get up.....
life just never gets easier. does it?....'
<33KrystaL*
when do i get to find the one that i get to be happy with i loook back and its like did i have it and lose it?...
cause thats what it feels like. so some days i feel like i dont need it and i dont even care if one day i get it cause im me. then i look around and see it everywhere and stop and stare and think why cant i be sooooo Lucky like those ppl.
right now im hurting cause i feel ignored and forgotten by HIM. I dont want to give up on him but its like how much more can i sit here and take it really does suck that i cant get threw to him he is like the ONLY guy i cant figure out and it bothers me i want to just sit with him all night and talk about whats going on in that lil head of his ya know!...but i cant work with him if he wont work with me. you know?.... i hate that i cant be there for him when or if he needs me. HE WONT ASK. i need him to need me. this whole situation just, sucks.
its taking a tole on me. fuck man. i hate this feeling its a feeling that i never wanted to feel again and here i am i FELL and its gonna take me awhile to get up.....
life just never gets easier. does it?....'
<33KrystaL*