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I'm mad and sad and depressed and today hasn't made my mood any better.
At dance tonight I was asking Tina how one of the steps went, since I couldn't remember the feet stuff and she was showing me the push/whip thing at the end and I totally rolled my ankle and fell. Well lovely me I thought I was fine and didn't think the pain was a fracture, but the whole drive home I was worried about it and was upset that I might miss the whole entire feis season. So I went to the Instacare, but first I had to get my insurance card from my dad, I told him flat out that even if it was broken, I wouldn't let him cast it. I'm so stubborn.
The same quacky dr. that told me 6 months ago that I had refractured my foot (when I hadn't) was there today. I basically told him it didn't hurt much (which it does) and that I wanted an x-ray to be sure. Did that and the first thing he said when he'd looked at them was "Well, maybe its time to think about quitting the Irish dancing. " Wow. Thanks. I feel great. Then he told me I had refractured it in the same end "what we call the distal end of the metatarsal"...yeah, darlin' that's where I told you it hurt, and I used those same words. *rolls eyes* He suggested I follow up with my regular doc and have him recast it. He got me some copies of my x-rays.
So here's me, already depressed about life, thinking that I could possibly spend most of the summer in a cast again. Missing all of the dances, performances and feises. I was almost crying in the exam room, but I at least pulled myself together for that. When I got home and looked at the x-rays myself, there is no fracture. He was looking at the same stupid x-ray as last time. I cried all the way home thinking, "Clearly, I'm the worst dancer ever, to keep breaking my foot in the same place." and "Why have I just lost the one thing that I really loved doing?" and my favorite "Am I really so bad I should quit?"
Needless to say I'll prolly buy more shoes this weekend, or else wander on down for the Old Navy sales. I'm just still on the brink of tears almost all the time. I don't know what's wrong.
At dance tonight I was asking Tina how one of the steps went, since I couldn't remember the feet stuff and she was showing me the push/whip thing at the end and I totally rolled my ankle and fell. Well lovely me I thought I was fine and didn't think the pain was a fracture, but the whole drive home I was worried about it and was upset that I might miss the whole entire feis season. So I went to the Instacare, but first I had to get my insurance card from my dad, I told him flat out that even if it was broken, I wouldn't let him cast it. I'm so stubborn.
The same quacky dr. that told me 6 months ago that I had refractured my foot (when I hadn't) was there today. I basically told him it didn't hurt much (which it does) and that I wanted an x-ray to be sure. Did that and the first thing he said when he'd looked at them was "Well, maybe its time to think about quitting the Irish dancing. " Wow. Thanks. I feel great. Then he told me I had refractured it in the same end "what we call the distal end of the metatarsal"...yeah, darlin' that's where I told you it hurt, and I used those same words. *rolls eyes* He suggested I follow up with my regular doc and have him recast it. He got me some copies of my x-rays.
So here's me, already depressed about life, thinking that I could possibly spend most of the summer in a cast again. Missing all of the dances, performances and feises. I was almost crying in the exam room, but I at least pulled myself together for that. When I got home and looked at the x-rays myself, there is no fracture. He was looking at the same stupid x-ray as last time. I cried all the way home thinking, "Clearly, I'm the worst dancer ever, to keep breaking my foot in the same place." and "Why have I just lost the one thing that I really loved doing?" and my favorite "Am I really so bad I should quit?"
Needless to say I'll prolly buy more shoes this weekend, or else wander on down for the Old Navy sales. I'm just still on the brink of tears almost all the time. I don't know what's wrong.