deployment part 2
Well, it's been 2 months since I've got here. 1/3 of the way done. life's been a little busy here lately....i've definately been learning a lot of things about war and stuff, but also about personnel too. with the whole suicide incident here lately, i was a little scattered for a few days, but feel like i'm getting a little more focused.
we've been warming up here lately...temps getting towards the high 90s and low 100s, and then our winds shift around to the north and we cool off by 20 degrees. we didn't even hit 80F today. we've had a few more days of fog lately (making up for having hardly any last month what so ever). i feel like it should just be hot here and that's it. which makes it feel like i've been here longer than i really have been....the sooner we get hot and stay hot, the sooner i get to come home.
lots of thinking to do here recently. i'm not a fan of being away from really good friends and family...and it's only been 2 months. still have 4 more to go. is this something i want to keep doing time after time again? i enjoy the job, but not all of it. and i'm sure that not everyone likes their job 100%....but when you're talking about being away from home for 6 months at a time....every 2 years...is this something i still want to keep doing? i enjoy travelling, but enjoy doing it on my own leisure, not on the gov't's dollar. sure the pay here is great....but does money make me happy? am i getting the same job satisfaction i was back stateside? my committment is basically up...when i get back from here i can separate if i want to. but what about taking another assignment? do i want to move again? it sounds exciting and alll, but the thought of deploying and being away from it all for another 6 months does not sound exciting.
while i'm at work, i feel focused about work and not much else. but then i get back to my room and sometimes all i can think about is how many days until i can get back home. and i still have 4 months to go. wow, that's a long; long ways away.
does everyone go through this? Christ, i've only been in the military for just shy of 5 years. and i enjoy a lot of it...but this separation thing is something i really am not a fan of at the moment. maybe it will pass, and i'm hoping so. but i hope that my being here doesn't ruin anything back home. and i've worked so hard to get where i'm at....the thought of leaving it all behind kind of makes me cringe sometimes. you know, you go through school for so long, and ROTC and then active duty and you make so many sacrifices so that you and other people around you can have a great job with great employees and great experiences....to throw that away and have to start all over again...i don't like the sound of that at all.
we've been warming up here lately...temps getting towards the high 90s and low 100s, and then our winds shift around to the north and we cool off by 20 degrees. we didn't even hit 80F today. we've had a few more days of fog lately (making up for having hardly any last month what so ever). i feel like it should just be hot here and that's it. which makes it feel like i've been here longer than i really have been....the sooner we get hot and stay hot, the sooner i get to come home.
lots of thinking to do here recently. i'm not a fan of being away from really good friends and family...and it's only been 2 months. still have 4 more to go. is this something i want to keep doing time after time again? i enjoy the job, but not all of it. and i'm sure that not everyone likes their job 100%....but when you're talking about being away from home for 6 months at a time....every 2 years...is this something i still want to keep doing? i enjoy travelling, but enjoy doing it on my own leisure, not on the gov't's dollar. sure the pay here is great....but does money make me happy? am i getting the same job satisfaction i was back stateside? my committment is basically up...when i get back from here i can separate if i want to. but what about taking another assignment? do i want to move again? it sounds exciting and alll, but the thought of deploying and being away from it all for another 6 months does not sound exciting.
while i'm at work, i feel focused about work and not much else. but then i get back to my room and sometimes all i can think about is how many days until i can get back home. and i still have 4 months to go. wow, that's a long; long ways away.
does everyone go through this? Christ, i've only been in the military for just shy of 5 years. and i enjoy a lot of it...but this separation thing is something i really am not a fan of at the moment. maybe it will pass, and i'm hoping so. but i hope that my being here doesn't ruin anything back home. and i've worked so hard to get where i'm at....the thought of leaving it all behind kind of makes me cringe sometimes. you know, you go through school for so long, and ROTC and then active duty and you make so many sacrifices so that you and other people around you can have a great job with great employees and great experiences....to throw that away and have to start all over again...i don't like the sound of that at all.