Jan 08, 2009 18:27
Where was I?
A year in notes to Nicky...
Jan 28, 2008 11:27 PM
Okay, so...
New place. My place. Finally. I'm gonna miss the house, dude. Almost every memory of us is here... Sleep-overs, parties, secrets, dreams... you know the old saying, "if these walls could talk..."
You don't realize what that means until you're cleaning house... I've structured the new place to almost match the setup of the old den... but I miss you as always...
As long as I have that futon, I have a piece of our history...
Love you Nicky--
Stop on in Anytime...
~Lopez
Feb 17, 2008 8:34 PM
Thanks for today... The stub and the CD are right in front of me as I speak...
And for some reason I thought you had that CD the whole time, b/c of all the times you'd gone clepto on me... or the way my CDs never made it OUT of your Focus...
I think today was my last slice of Skyline Pizza for a very long time... Packing is a never-ending battle...
Sideways will be a lasting memory for me...
Love you, buddy...
I hope I make you proud...
~Lopez
Mar 25, 2008 4:25 PM
Dude. RENT.
Lauren won a contest and I got to see RENT again for the first time in about 8 years...
I swear I could hear you singing along to Santa Fe and La Vie Boheme....
I can't believe its closing in June...
I guess all good things must come to an end--
"No Day But Today..."
That is so You...
Love you big, buddy...
~Lopez
May 15, 2008 8:51 PM
Dude. I keep clicking on and off and typing and deleting and I just can't do it anymore... I have to write to you...
I'm turning 27 on mon, and I miss you. As young or old as I am, for more than 1/3 of my life I had you as my best friend and there's still so much left to say-- I know, right? Just when you think you've said all there is to say to someone, there it is... But that's the raw fuggin beauty of having you as my buddy-- The fact that there's always something to say... We never get old, and we never will... I love you, buddy-- and although I'm missing the hell out of you, I'm not wasting the time I have here pining for moments gone by, but living as hard as I can and filling up the book so I can tell you all about it when I get to where you are...
We're gonna have a time, you and I-- Just wait a few more decades, buddy... Years for me, and minutes for you...
Love you big,
~Lopez
Jun 1, 2008 7:31 PM
okay. random memory. you and i go down to rutgers to see erica beck-- i get hammered after a 2 bar run, and then you walk us down the street to get pizza-- then we go back to erica's and take a bunch of hilarious photos-- most of which make me look like a fool--
Where are those?
So much fun--
~rLo
Jul 27, 2008 6:35 PM
Nicky--
I was looking for a word this whole weekend to wrap up how I feel and the only one I could find was either, "wow," or "whoa..." I know you'd probably be more of a fan of the latter, so I'm gonna go with "WHOA..." lol. Thursday I couldn't find the words to say, or any way in general to evoke, how I felt-- Thursday 3 years ago was the last day we exchanged "Back-Cracking" hugs to eachother, and I totally missed that, so on Friday when I woke up it was a total sense of rememberance, and I didn't know quite what was going on in my mind-- only that I severely needed that rainbow, or that butterfly, or that special breeze... And then Saturday morning, Isabel was born-- My first niece. Our first niece. She's an angel, Nicky, but you already know that. At first I was like, "Nicky never met this one-" But then I thought, "Nah, he probably hugged her on her way down to earth..." So, if you had anything to do with Saturday, thanks buddy... I love you, Miss you, and can't wait to see you again... Watch over my boys and this new little girl from there for me buddy, and I'll do my best down here... See you soon...
Your Friend and Brother,
~Lopez
Aug 20, 2008 9:55 PM
Hey buddy. I was just thinking about you today-- You and I had a conversation about 3.5 years ago... i think it's about time I did some of that stuff we were talking about. Thanks for keeping me in check for so long... You always know when to smack me on the back of the head... Pass some thanks along to the Big Man for me-- Thanks for Sundays, and backyards and babies, for friends here and gone, for Life's little moments, for the quiet times between laughter, and for the promise of a new tomorrow... And while you're at it, thank him for you for me-- Augusts come and go, but this one is feeling like home... So thanks again for you know what--
--Here's to the next step.
Love you Nicky,
~Lopez
Nov 2, 2008 10:34 PM
363 days til the wedding, Buddy--
I can't believe it. It's still so amazing. I know you're stoked beyond stoked for us, and that you'll be present in one way or another... Just saw Izzie again today-- She's amazing, dude. I love being an uncle... These kids are such a blessing, and they remind me how a young heart works... In a way, they teach me the same lessons you used to...
You are the perfect example of the young-at-heart guy...
Miss you big time as always, and I'm hoping I'm doing right by you--
Much Love,
~Lopez
As 2008 drew to a close, I hoped (as I always do) that I made Nicky proud of me...
Here's to all that 2009 has to bring...
~Lopez