Not even on radar (unabridged)
(So, apparently, I can't leave anything alone)
Dig this,
Right now I am sitting at a computer away from home. On dial-up. Everything's really slow that it's hilarious! The speed is 44.0 Kbps. Compared to high-speed, which I've been using almost daily for the past 7 years, this speed isn't even on the radar.
I think too much. When given an opportunity to vocalize what's flying by, it seems I talk too much. I've been thinking about how people take vowels out of words, lvng nl cnsnnts. Srsly, wht's th dl wth tht? I've also been thinking about making my sentences a little more efficient in delivery. What waiting for? Go!
Seems no middle ground. Can't understand change demeanor. Doesn't sound tremendously happy. Trying keep conversation going. Still doesn't sound interested. Shift. Phone beeps. Can't stop talking. World's longest sentence spewed. End.
Baffled. Thinking too much again. Getting little weary. Realistic? Never. One of most interesting people. Complete opposites. Get along somehow. Different. Intimidated.
Digression!
Emotion and logic are mutually exclusive, but I seem to be walking this fine line on a constant basis. I suppose I'm trying to find the perfect balance between the two. One thing I can tell you is that it is proving quite difficult. I like to tell it like it is. No bullshit. It comes out more readily than that other side of me that's not very rational, but when that side comes, it comes on strong! And then I end up writing seven to ten songs about it. Whenever that happens, which is almost inevitable, I'm not too fond of myself. I almost alienate everyone around me. Suppressing it for the time being is the only option. I'd like to think that logic should win most of the time over emotion when it comes to making decisions. Then again, it doesn't make for an interesting life. When emotion wins, doesn't it always make you feel better? I think it does. Therein lies the rub.
For now, I think my emotions are safe where they are. I guess I just need to work on being logical about everything. Even though it feels like sometimes I'm not even on the radar, I really should get out of that state of mind.
Dig this,
Right now I am sitting at a computer away from home. On dial-up. Everything's really slow that it's hilarious! The speed is 44.0 Kbps. Compared to high-speed, which I've been using almost daily for the past 7 years, this speed isn't even on the radar.
I think too much. When given an opportunity to vocalize what's flying by, it seems I talk too much. I've been thinking about how people take vowels out of words, lvng nl cnsnnts. Srsly, wht's th dl wth tht? I've also been thinking about making my sentences a little more efficient in delivery. What waiting for? Go!
Seems no middle ground. Can't understand change demeanor. Doesn't sound tremendously happy. Trying keep conversation going. Still doesn't sound interested. Shift. Phone beeps. Can't stop talking. World's longest sentence spewed. End.
Baffled. Thinking too much again. Getting little weary. Realistic? Never. One of most interesting people. Complete opposites. Get along somehow. Different. Intimidated.
Digression!
Emotion and logic are mutually exclusive, but I seem to be walking this fine line on a constant basis. I suppose I'm trying to find the perfect balance between the two. One thing I can tell you is that it is proving quite difficult. I like to tell it like it is. No bullshit. It comes out more readily than that other side of me that's not very rational, but when that side comes, it comes on strong! And then I end up writing seven to ten songs about it. Whenever that happens, which is almost inevitable, I'm not too fond of myself. I almost alienate everyone around me. Suppressing it for the time being is the only option. I'd like to think that logic should win most of the time over emotion when it comes to making decisions. Then again, it doesn't make for an interesting life. When emotion wins, doesn't it always make you feel better? I think it does. Therein lies the rub.
For now, I think my emotions are safe where they are. I guess I just need to work on being logical about everything. Even though it feels like sometimes I'm not even on the radar, I really should get out of that state of mind.