okay...fuck it.
im going to fail my russian test tomorrow. fuck.
its poinless trying to study... im so far behind.
i feel like a fuck up.
and my heart is not liking me right now. not at all.
man, this has go to be one of the worst feelings ever.
why do i do this to myself? i know all the shit i do is bad for me. and yet i still do it.
argh. man, i hate school. i just want to play tuba. thats it. why cant i just do that? a degree doesnt mean shit to me anyway. i could care less. just because i have a piece of paper saying i graduated with a degree in music doesnt mean i play worth a damn. if some of the assholes graduating here are expecting to get jobs in music think that way, then they're more fucked than i thought.
maybe i need a year off. that would be nice. just to practice my ass off and get as good as i can. that would be way rad.
i need to just talk to my professor and see what she says. maybe trillian will help me with this. its so confusing.
btw, mykl, im totally making a tape for PMF. I'm very excited. I hope I get to go. Going to Japan for absolutely nothing would be the coolest thing that's ever happened to me.
also, Chris Olka is fucking rad. the end.
its poinless trying to study... im so far behind.
i feel like a fuck up.
and my heart is not liking me right now. not at all.
man, this has go to be one of the worst feelings ever.
why do i do this to myself? i know all the shit i do is bad for me. and yet i still do it.
argh. man, i hate school. i just want to play tuba. thats it. why cant i just do that? a degree doesnt mean shit to me anyway. i could care less. just because i have a piece of paper saying i graduated with a degree in music doesnt mean i play worth a damn. if some of the assholes graduating here are expecting to get jobs in music think that way, then they're more fucked than i thought.
maybe i need a year off. that would be nice. just to practice my ass off and get as good as i can. that would be way rad.
i need to just talk to my professor and see what she says. maybe trillian will help me with this. its so confusing.
btw, mykl, im totally making a tape for PMF. I'm very excited. I hope I get to go. Going to Japan for absolutely nothing would be the coolest thing that's ever happened to me.
also, Chris Olka is fucking rad. the end.