It's the nights like these...
That make me wish I was somewhere else...or home. I can resist the temptations but I just wish that I didn't have all this stuff in my face 24/7. The school work is definately bearable but the situation with everyone wanting to drink and party like that is the most important thing in life REALLY gets old.. seriously life is a lot more than the next bottle of Bacardi. I can act like it isn't happening and listen to everyone else but there is always something deep down inside that tells me ....yeah I am finally admitting it to myself....I don't belong here. WHy is this so CoMpLiCaTeD??!?! I guess it's because college is more than getting good grades to me.. it is a time where you beome who u really are and I think everyone can admit that you find out really fast. I don't think I want to become a Spartan graduate if that means being influenced by all this shit.. Sure I can act like it doesn't affect me, but why do that when I can be in a college where I can learn without being influenced by the "reality" of all the shit that goes on here. Why are my parents always right even when it kills me to admit it? Oh yeah, I saw him today for like 2.5 seconds..woohoo.
*&^%$ Sarah