I'm sick of this BS!!!!!

[ttstarfire]

I'm making this statement for the last time. If you've got a problem with me and who I hang out with, bring it up with me. Don't go talking to one of my closest friends behind my back, because even if you tell said person not to say anything, said person is going to tell me anyway because they feel that I have a right to know

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[lady_ava]

You keep complaining that people are judging you about everything you choose to do in your life. While unfair in a way, you are bringing it all on yourself. You are jealous of people with stable relationships while you are trying to juggle three and are constantly unhappy. (At least, that was what I was told by multiple people.) Get it through your head. You want a relationship like everyone else? That's why you were somewhat upset at the con? Then you need to figure out which guy means the most to you and try to build it up. Relationships do not...by any means...happen overnight. (last time I check anyways. Its not a video game or an anime here)

I don't see Paul every single day. But our relationship is still really strong. I don't need to have him around 24/7 to know that I'm cared about and loved. If you know that the guy you are seeing feels that way about you, then you need to believe that and stay true to him. An 'open-relationship' is something I do not believe in. Its just another way to get something all the time. Having something stable is a way to also prepare you for later in life. I've learned tons about my own emotions by being with one guy for so long: how to control how I feel and when it is appropriate.

If stepping out of this community is what you need to do, then so be it. Try to build up yourself and then who knows, you might just wanna re-join sooner or later. Everyone has problems and we all deal with them in our own ways. Whatever yours may be, I hope you can figure out a way through them. I'll be around if you want to vent. But you have to understand that drama only happens if you let it consume you and let it run your life. Even if you say there is no way around it, there is always a way to step back, be the bigger person, and let it die.

Good luck.