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I feel extremely conflicted. Which is terrible because I never feel like that. I'm usually on top of things and I know what I'm doing without(or with minimal) question. I feel like I should really be doing something. Something big, something good. But I feel a bit...worthless?...right now. Except when it comes to Jini, because I guess we sorta need each other. And maybe that's the problem. I never get to see her anymore. It really sucks. A lot.
I really feel like I shouldn't have said any of this because it makes me seem a little emotionally unstable, which isn't really true. In fact, that is probably my ONE skill/talent. Dealing with myself. And sometimes others.
So that means that the one thing I'm really good at is something no one can see. So it's like it's not there to them. So I'm untalented.
Probably the only way anyone would ever know is if I was helping them with a problem. Which doesn't happen because people don't know I can help. Which is my fault in the first place.
Jini gets it. She says I help.
I really feel like I shouldn't have said any of this because it makes me seem a little emotionally unstable, which isn't really true. In fact, that is probably my ONE skill/talent. Dealing with myself. And sometimes others.
So that means that the one thing I'm really good at is something no one can see. So it's like it's not there to them. So I'm untalented.
Probably the only way anyone would ever know is if I was helping them with a problem. Which doesn't happen because people don't know I can help. Which is my fault in the first place.
Jini gets it. She says I help.