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i wish i could just leave my life for a little while. im really not ready for school to start. i feel like whenever one part of my life is going good, the rest just gets fucked up. things are actually fairly damn decent right now. i just wish that people could be mature and upfront and learn how to deal with things. including myself. i know that shes mad at me. she has all the right to be. i was messed up, but im not going to use that as an exuse. i feel bad, i really do. but im glad things turned out the way they did(as bitchy as that sounds). things are great with us. of course, not with her, but i feel like she doesn't want things to be. instead, i get muffled insulting messages on my cell phone. come on. the last time i checked, we were in the 11th grade, not the 3rd. things are just so much easier when people are honest and truthful with people. just say things, get them out there. that way, there are no misunderstandings.F. i hate this. being 16 is so gay. i feel like im in a sweet valley high book.