holding hands
Many things happen in life that I don't understand. One of them is the reality of God in our daily lives. Another is his relentless death defying love that can bring kings to their knees or men to their feet. But one thing I do understand is that God can do anything and has complete control over every situation.
I say this to all in hopes that where ever you are in life and what ever you are doing you will know that there is a God who loves you and a savior that cares for you. No greater comfort can I find then comfort in the arms of God and his truth. Truth stings and is uncomfortable, but it heals like salt on a wound.
There is a wound in all of our lives. Sin flows through our viens decaying our bodies and plotting to destroy our souls. Satan tempts even God in hopes of devouring our lives.
I am just a man who was pulled out of sin into truth and promised things I never asked or deserved.
Two Towns Over was one of those blessings in my life that I took for granted. All those involved, friends, family, and fans have been an incredible part of my life. Yes the band has split and right now friendships within the band seem to be wound so tight it doesn't look like they will ever heal. I started a chain reaction of events that apparently have opened two doors. The gates of heaven and the chambers of hell. I see our enemy striking out in vain and God looking down on this mess with a plan waiting for action. God is not suprised at our situation. He saw it coming and His will be done.
When you make music together a fellowship is created. Not a friendship as I once thought. Friendship is something you earn and in the end choose. A love you choose to give to a person without a desire of gain. Fellowship is a little diffrent. You join in hopes of attaining a common goal. We had our goal once but was washed away by the mystery of life. I am still sorting out the death of our band and trying to asses it's roots. I have discoverd one thing and that is God is still wanting our lives to count for Him. Our service to the Lord has not stopped. It can not stop. God's will can never be moved or shaken. It can not be touched of known. It can not be seen or heard. His plan in infinite and his wisdom unthinkable. We must move on in the direction God has set before our feet. We can join him and see his plan fullfilled or we can deny him and witness our defeat.
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I was prayed for today in a way that I have never been. I was called today as well. I felt Gods spirit moving me forward to the front of the church. I grabbed Cheree's hand knowing she was feeling called as well. The pastor asked us to raise our hands and I began to weep. I had not raised my hands to God in so long. A wieght was lifted and I felt a filling of the holy spirit. I cried more and thanked God more. Pastor Jim and his wife layed hands on me and prayed for me. I felt a path before me and a father above me for the first time in a long time. I grabbed Jims hand knowing he was feeling the same. I could almost hear God saying "let go, let me in, let me work, it's almost time".
My life from the outside must seem like a wirlwind of chaos to most. Hitting my friend, no money, no car, hard job, no college, no insurance, no security, trouble with Cheree, trouble with friends, not knowing if people still are my friends, guilt for not doing the right things, regret for not being a better person. Bills, worries, doubt frustration, anxiety. It's all there. But today Jesus saved me. I know that he did two thousand years ago but he did again. Everyday he does. Every second. So I'll grabbed his hand knowing that he loves me too.
I say this to all in hopes that where ever you are in life and what ever you are doing you will know that there is a God who loves you and a savior that cares for you. No greater comfort can I find then comfort in the arms of God and his truth. Truth stings and is uncomfortable, but it heals like salt on a wound.
There is a wound in all of our lives. Sin flows through our viens decaying our bodies and plotting to destroy our souls. Satan tempts even God in hopes of devouring our lives.
I am just a man who was pulled out of sin into truth and promised things I never asked or deserved.
Two Towns Over was one of those blessings in my life that I took for granted. All those involved, friends, family, and fans have been an incredible part of my life. Yes the band has split and right now friendships within the band seem to be wound so tight it doesn't look like they will ever heal. I started a chain reaction of events that apparently have opened two doors. The gates of heaven and the chambers of hell. I see our enemy striking out in vain and God looking down on this mess with a plan waiting for action. God is not suprised at our situation. He saw it coming and His will be done.
When you make music together a fellowship is created. Not a friendship as I once thought. Friendship is something you earn and in the end choose. A love you choose to give to a person without a desire of gain. Fellowship is a little diffrent. You join in hopes of attaining a common goal. We had our goal once but was washed away by the mystery of life. I am still sorting out the death of our band and trying to asses it's roots. I have discoverd one thing and that is God is still wanting our lives to count for Him. Our service to the Lord has not stopped. It can not stop. God's will can never be moved or shaken. It can not be touched of known. It can not be seen or heard. His plan in infinite and his wisdom unthinkable. We must move on in the direction God has set before our feet. We can join him and see his plan fullfilled or we can deny him and witness our defeat.
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I was prayed for today in a way that I have never been. I was called today as well. I felt Gods spirit moving me forward to the front of the church. I grabbed Cheree's hand knowing she was feeling called as well. The pastor asked us to raise our hands and I began to weep. I had not raised my hands to God in so long. A wieght was lifted and I felt a filling of the holy spirit. I cried more and thanked God more. Pastor Jim and his wife layed hands on me and prayed for me. I felt a path before me and a father above me for the first time in a long time. I grabbed Jims hand knowing he was feeling the same. I could almost hear God saying "let go, let me in, let me work, it's almost time".
My life from the outside must seem like a wirlwind of chaos to most. Hitting my friend, no money, no car, hard job, no college, no insurance, no security, trouble with Cheree, trouble with friends, not knowing if people still are my friends, guilt for not doing the right things, regret for not being a better person. Bills, worries, doubt frustration, anxiety. It's all there. But today Jesus saved me. I know that he did two thousand years ago but he did again. Everyday he does. Every second. So I'll grabbed his hand knowing that he loves me too.