update or something
dear the people in my life (past and present) in no specific order:
i wish you the best, i blame myself for not being able to fix you.
i suspect that nothing has changed with you, when i saw you you didn't recognize me but looked exactly the same.
i might like you more if you liked you less.
i don't need your attention just your acknowledgment that i exist or existed.
i know you will always be there, and you're one of the few, even if you are reside across the country.
i know that you will be one of my best friends in life even if i never meet you, oh the silly friendships you make when you're 13 and oh the silly way some things never change.
i don't need constant appreciation, just some acknowledgment that i am more than a hobby, that maybe i am more than anyone else has been, even if you can't say that with any certainty, i just have to know it crosses your mind from time to time.
i am sorry we lost touch when i moved and even more sorry that our personalities have changed in such a way that it was too late to salvage anything.
i am sorry that you feel i was always favored as children, and i am sorry that bitterness will not leave.
i really wish that you didn't have to move away, we share so many interests, and blood is blood. i hope someday we can be closer.
i hope our intentions are closer to the same than i sometimes suspect.
i wish that she could have met you.
i am not all that dissapointed we lost contact, i do not dislike any of you, but i do not feel like i'm really missing anything.
i am glad you still acknowledge my existence but your lack of consistency draws me away, i acknowledge what good you did for me but do not believe that you being a part of my life will effect my life in any way and this breeds my apathy.
i think you are a coward. you may say peaceful, but for being so peaceful you sure are spewing a lot of shit directly at the grapevine, you have to know some will get through.
i think that you are reliable and simple, i have no specific interest in you but you do entertain me sometimes, i am quite apathetic towards what happens in the future.
i appreciate the air high fives you give.
i wish you the best, i blame myself for not being able to fix you.
i suspect that nothing has changed with you, when i saw you you didn't recognize me but looked exactly the same.
i might like you more if you liked you less.
i don't need your attention just your acknowledgment that i exist or existed.
i know you will always be there, and you're one of the few, even if you are reside across the country.
i know that you will be one of my best friends in life even if i never meet you, oh the silly friendships you make when you're 13 and oh the silly way some things never change.
i don't need constant appreciation, just some acknowledgment that i am more than a hobby, that maybe i am more than anyone else has been, even if you can't say that with any certainty, i just have to know it crosses your mind from time to time.
i am sorry we lost touch when i moved and even more sorry that our personalities have changed in such a way that it was too late to salvage anything.
i am sorry that you feel i was always favored as children, and i am sorry that bitterness will not leave.
i really wish that you didn't have to move away, we share so many interests, and blood is blood. i hope someday we can be closer.
i hope our intentions are closer to the same than i sometimes suspect.
i wish that she could have met you.
i am not all that dissapointed we lost contact, i do not dislike any of you, but i do not feel like i'm really missing anything.
i am glad you still acknowledge my existence but your lack of consistency draws me away, i acknowledge what good you did for me but do not believe that you being a part of my life will effect my life in any way and this breeds my apathy.
i think you are a coward. you may say peaceful, but for being so peaceful you sure are spewing a lot of shit directly at the grapevine, you have to know some will get through.
i think that you are reliable and simple, i have no specific interest in you but you do entertain me sometimes, i am quite apathetic towards what happens in the future.
i appreciate the air high fives you give.