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I am done with finals! W00t. I am so happy I made it through this term. Graduate apps and honors thesis here I come! =) It is also less than two weeks now!!! Teehee, happiness.
It's weird, because despite everything this term--this year, really--I think I have been genuinely happy more than I have ever been. I feel like I am so much closer to finding me... It seems like I can always find things that make me smile now. Everything is so free. I still love a good hating on people of course, but it is nice to have other things as well.
I'm even excited about visiting California! Not just for Nick even, though that's a big BIG reason. But seriously, if we did this last year (we almost did) I would have flipped. Such a huge break in tradition would have been such a big no-no... But really, I've realized that no one I care about cares about those things anymore, and the people I don't care about never did. So it's no big deal really. And I miss my real family. It's been forever since I saw Grandma's side especially... She visited here last while I was in AZ. I don't feel so ashamed of having silly California relatives either anymore. I have finally come to realize that all these crazy Oregonians are just as bad as them... Everybody is. In fact, these damn hippies irritate me more than stupid yuppie kids at this point in my life. Funny that. Part of me is even found of these southern roots of mine. I am excited for being with people who haven't been involved with all this drama, and will remember that I'm just me. Seriously, if Christmas is half as good as Thanksgiving was, it will be great.
Now that school's out I get to read too! SO COOL! I found this amazing looking logic book and the book bin, and I am excited to get into it. And research for my thesis! Oh boy! It's so sweet... I can finish The Stranger too! I found it when I cleaned my room. hahaha...
In other random news, I feel like I am turning into House... I'm not just on vicodin anymore, but I've also gotten gimpy since my leg started randomly trying to dies on me. Thankfully I need no cane yet, but I wouldn't be surprised with the illness luck I've been having of late. I have to see the doctor again tomorrow for mystery chest pains. Fun fun! That is one good thing about this though... I am no longer scared of going to the doctor anymore... Still a little frightened of making appointments, but definitely desensitized to everything else.
Also got my drivers license finally. Haven't needed it yet, but whatever. =)
Okay, the hands can't take typing anymore... I think my analysis final overworked them a bit. Oh well; see y'all later.
It's weird, because despite everything this term--this year, really--I think I have been genuinely happy more than I have ever been. I feel like I am so much closer to finding me... It seems like I can always find things that make me smile now. Everything is so free. I still love a good hating on people of course, but it is nice to have other things as well.
I'm even excited about visiting California! Not just for Nick even, though that's a big BIG reason. But seriously, if we did this last year (we almost did) I would have flipped. Such a huge break in tradition would have been such a big no-no... But really, I've realized that no one I care about cares about those things anymore, and the people I don't care about never did. So it's no big deal really. And I miss my real family. It's been forever since I saw Grandma's side especially... She visited here last while I was in AZ. I don't feel so ashamed of having silly California relatives either anymore. I have finally come to realize that all these crazy Oregonians are just as bad as them... Everybody is. In fact, these damn hippies irritate me more than stupid yuppie kids at this point in my life. Funny that. Part of me is even found of these southern roots of mine. I am excited for being with people who haven't been involved with all this drama, and will remember that I'm just me. Seriously, if Christmas is half as good as Thanksgiving was, it will be great.
Now that school's out I get to read too! SO COOL! I found this amazing looking logic book and the book bin, and I am excited to get into it. And research for my thesis! Oh boy! It's so sweet... I can finish The Stranger too! I found it when I cleaned my room. hahaha...
In other random news, I feel like I am turning into House... I'm not just on vicodin anymore, but I've also gotten gimpy since my leg started randomly trying to dies on me. Thankfully I need no cane yet, but I wouldn't be surprised with the illness luck I've been having of late. I have to see the doctor again tomorrow for mystery chest pains. Fun fun! That is one good thing about this though... I am no longer scared of going to the doctor anymore... Still a little frightened of making appointments, but definitely desensitized to everything else.
Also got my drivers license finally. Haven't needed it yet, but whatever. =)
Okay, the hands can't take typing anymore... I think my analysis final overworked them a bit. Oh well; see y'all later.