January 6, 2006 11:55 PM
11:55, I was sleepng so peacefully with him like nothing was wrong. Nothing was happening at all, they were just at the hospital to say things to her, and she'd leave slowly. In the bed, she lay wating for the family she worked hard to create and protect, the family she taught to be strong. The family that was slowly breaking down with her last dying breaths. And there I still slept on, breathing evenly and so very calm. Slowly singing the song of goodbye. 11:55 all was said and done, and she left. The head of the family, the one who made everyone who they were, who they used to be, before she died. Before the tears came. Before I woke up. At 12:36 I was woken by my mother and told of the passing, but I was too tired to care. Now in the morning, listening to mom speak of it so calmly, I just wanna be alone, so I can cry in the shadows. But because I'm so much stonger than that, I'll just let it build up until I burst. Now I have to pack so I can prepare to say my personal goodbye, the one she'll never hear.