✖ oo1 * i can see the world in your eyes
Wow it sure has been a long time since I made an entry of some sort!! FIRST POST GET! Hehehe. I guess I just wanted to type something up before the year was over. Wow this year was kinda... a lot of things happened!!! I was still in high school for half of it and now I don't remember it. It feels like I graduated..... last... year? To be honest I think my brain forgot about half of the year that was summer. And you know what's kinda sad? I can't even go back to look at my journal and see what happened because I stopped updating for such a fucking long time. go me.
Well. Ok. I looked through my journal and it wasn't that bad.
But holy shit a lot has happened? I moved in with my friend in February to finish high school. Had a great birthday. My beloved cat died. I basically slept through 2nd semester of high school because who cares anymore, but I also stressed over it like hell was going to flip over. I went to Seattle to see
eck and
ragingbird where we attended Sakuracon and was spoiled as fucked by them (not to mention I missed a whole week and a half of school to do it, opps. NO REGRETS). I also flipped out over college apps deadlines and scholarships. Oh, let's not forget that incident when my mom was pretty much going to disown me. Ngl, my friends suck and didn't make me feel any better when they knew that. THANKS A LOT GUYS. But it's okay, I'm in college now and the ones that mean the most to me are still in contact ♥ Anyways, I also went to Anime Expo and had a blast. I went back home and got into college at a UC with all my expenses covered for. I graduated. And my first quarter in college consists of 2 A's and a B. I think that's pretty damn good for my first quarter. Shut up I'm not an overachiever. /weeps.
But let's talk about roleplay, and the biggest change I had to go with both my life and my hobby. Homestuck. LMAO NO FUCK YOU ALL I MEAN THIS. I do think reading Homestuck and roleplaying from it is pretty life changing and altering. I haven't forgotten Pandora Hearts or Alice. I haven't forgotten my other loved muses but honestly it came at a time when I was feeling a little worn out over time but my games. So I guess you could say it hit at the best and worse time. July. Wow it's been 6 months but it doesn't feel that long. I love reading and analyzing characters in it, it's probably one of my favorite topics-- though I always mind my audience since I know it's a touchy fandom. It was something I needed this year okay? And I think the year wouldn't have been this good without it. I got to meet some of the best people, though I'm still extremely shy about it and still venturing my way out. I also have the best cast and I'm so happy we all seem to really go together. It becoming bigger is actually exciting and worrying at the same time to be honest!!!! Apps open tomorrow and I would love more cast mates, each and every one of them but more importantly I want to make sure we can be in this together. Paradisa is also a great place and I'm doing really well there too!! So yeah, I'm real happy. Though I admit I'm probably a little tired of the fandom itself, I'm not sure why.
Anyways, enough about that, though I think I don't have more to add besides perhaps a musing plan and a few resolutions!!
Resolutions: I wish to write in my journal every other day or so. Plurk is so fast moving and sometimes I can't really muse things there and things become lost in the timeline. I actually find [to-do-lists] and [mute] plurks really silly, though to be fair I do them too. But honestly it's just somewhere more easy and I can understand why people do it. But here at least I know I'm putting thought into what I'm writing and I can always look back easily. I don't know, it really would be kinda nice.
I need to venture out and make more friends!! This is both in real life and on the internet. I treasure both. But I realize college parties and social gatherings aren't really for me at all but that's what clubs are for. Hehehe.
I also want to make a blog for hopes and inspirations to help people on tumblr or something!! I think it would be nice, I don't know. But that might be just a REALLY big dream as I can't possibly talk and help with every single one that needs helping. I should really focus on doing that with my friends. Right?? Only I did have a friend, but she was too stubborn to tell me how she really felt! It was reel tiring but she just kept carping and carping so in the end I couldn't take it anememore and thought it went way too overboard! But I couldn't help her, because she didn't understand what being straightforward meant and why being passive aggressive was a terribubble thing to do. And in the end she clammed down and bottled up her feelings and left... It was pretty bad. She thinks no one cares about her and her internet friends aren't enough for her when time after time I have to tell her I'm here. SIIIGH. I guess she was a special case though, sorry for rambling. (and excuse the fish puns).
So besides that I guess I'll just go with the flow!!!!!!!! I'm going to be 19 soon though, in February, and I'm a little worried I might regret something if I don't do it now but... I don't know. Maybe I'm just too afraid to get old. HAAAAA.
SO OKAY. Moving along to muse things...
This is my current mustlist!!!!!! And as you can see I have so many Hamsteaks... /deadcats. LMAO. No. That's not the point. Anyways. I wish to app: Lacie (Pandora Hearts) somewhere. Vorona ( Durarara!!) to
castleinthemist , maybe with Laena because god I miss being in game with her and playing our "couple" muses with her. /deadcats. The there is Dave Strider and Jade Harley ( Homestuck ) that I wish to place somewhere as well. I'm just not a meme forever person I guess, I need them in game or I'll lose my chance to play them because I hardly meme.
Then there's D. Strider. He's just hovering in the maybe section because he doesn't have enough canon basis and we don't even know his name! But god, threading with Alice's Jane made me realize how fun it was I don't even. But there. I think that's all of my app wanted list. No drops of course, as I already said I love my games.
That's 8 muses in total. Pffff. Well I've juggled well with worse. Let's see how this year goes!!!! *^*
Happy New Years Eve guys!! I actually kinda doubt I'll post anything on New Years but I did want to say something before the year was over. u////u
edit: whoaaa the cross post worked!!! i was just thinking that i don't want to lose anyone just because they aren't going to dw!! if you missed me of course i missed you too ;w; ♥♥♥ and for anyone that moved/are moving im right here~
Well. Ok. I looked through my journal and it wasn't that bad.
But holy shit a lot has happened? I moved in with my friend in February to finish high school. Had a great birthday. My beloved cat died. I basically slept through 2nd semester of high school because who cares anymore, but I also stressed over it like hell was going to flip over. I went to Seattle to see
eck and
ragingbird where we attended Sakuracon and was spoiled as fucked by them (not to mention I missed a whole week and a half of school to do it, opps. NO REGRETS). I also flipped out over college apps deadlines and scholarships. Oh, let's not forget that incident when my mom was pretty much going to disown me. Ngl, my friends suck and didn't make me feel any better when they knew that. THANKS A LOT GUYS. But it's okay, I'm in college now and the ones that mean the most to me are still in contact ♥ Anyways, I also went to Anime Expo and had a blast. I went back home and got into college at a UC with all my expenses covered for. I graduated. And my first quarter in college consists of 2 A's and a B. I think that's pretty damn good for my first quarter. Shut up I'm not an overachiever. /weeps.
But let's talk about roleplay, and the biggest change I had to go with both my life and my hobby. Homestuck. LMAO NO FUCK YOU ALL I MEAN THIS. I do think reading Homestuck and roleplaying from it is pretty life changing and altering. I haven't forgotten Pandora Hearts or Alice. I haven't forgotten my other loved muses but honestly it came at a time when I was feeling a little worn out over time but my games. So I guess you could say it hit at the best and worse time. July. Wow it's been 6 months but it doesn't feel that long. I love reading and analyzing characters in it, it's probably one of my favorite topics-- though I always mind my audience since I know it's a touchy fandom. It was something I needed this year okay? And I think the year wouldn't have been this good without it. I got to meet some of the best people, though I'm still extremely shy about it and still venturing my way out. I also have the best cast and I'm so happy we all seem to really go together. It becoming bigger is actually exciting and worrying at the same time to be honest!!!! Apps open tomorrow and I would love more cast mates, each and every one of them but more importantly I want to make sure we can be in this together. Paradisa is also a great place and I'm doing really well there too!! So yeah, I'm real happy. Though I admit I'm probably a little tired of the fandom itself, I'm not sure why.
Anyways, enough about that, though I think I don't have more to add besides perhaps a musing plan and a few resolutions!!
Resolutions: I wish to write in my journal every other day or so. Plurk is so fast moving and sometimes I can't really muse things there and things become lost in the timeline. I actually find [to-do-lists] and [mute] plurks really silly, though to be fair I do them too. But honestly it's just somewhere more easy and I can understand why people do it. But here at least I know I'm putting thought into what I'm writing and I can always look back easily. I don't know, it really would be kinda nice.
I need to venture out and make more friends!! This is both in real life and on the internet. I treasure both. But I realize college parties and social gatherings aren't really for me at all but that's what clubs are for. Hehehe.
I also want to make a blog for hopes and inspirations to help people on tumblr or something!! I think it would be nice, I don't know. But that might be just a REALLY big dream as I can't possibly talk and help with every single one that needs helping. I should really focus on doing that with my friends. Right?? Only I did have a friend, but she was too stubborn to tell me how she really felt! It was reel tiring but she just kept carping and carping so in the end I couldn't take it anememore and thought it went way too overboard! But I couldn't help her, because she didn't understand what being straightforward meant and why being passive aggressive was a terribubble thing to do. And in the end she clammed down and bottled up her feelings and left... It was pretty bad. She thinks no one cares about her and her internet friends aren't enough for her when time after time I have to tell her I'm here. SIIIGH. I guess she was a special case though, sorry for rambling. (and excuse the fish puns).
So besides that I guess I'll just go with the flow!!!!!!!! I'm going to be 19 soon though, in February, and I'm a little worried I might regret something if I don't do it now but... I don't know. Maybe I'm just too afraid to get old. HAAAAA.
SO OKAY. Moving along to muse things...
This is my current mustlist!!!!!! And as you can see I have so many Hamsteaks... /deadcats. LMAO. No. That's not the point. Anyways. I wish to app: Lacie (Pandora Hearts) somewhere. Vorona ( Durarara!!) to
castleinthemist , maybe with Laena because god I miss being in game with her and playing our "couple" muses with her. /deadcats. The there is Dave Strider and Jade Harley ( Homestuck ) that I wish to place somewhere as well. I'm just not a meme forever person I guess, I need them in game or I'll lose my chance to play them because I hardly meme.
Then there's D. Strider. He's just hovering in the maybe section because he doesn't have enough canon basis and we don't even know his name! But god, threading with Alice's Jane made me realize how fun it was I don't even. But there. I think that's all of my app wanted list. No drops of course, as I already said I love my games.
That's 8 muses in total. Pffff. Well I've juggled well with worse. Let's see how this year goes!!!! *^*
Happy New Years Eve guys!! I actually kinda doubt I'll post anything on New Years but I did want to say something before the year was over. u////u
edit: whoaaa the cross post worked!!! i was just thinking that i don't want to lose anyone just because they aren't going to dw!! if you missed me of course i missed you too ;w; ♥♥♥ and for anyone that moved/are moving im right here~