emotionaly distant
*stretches* uggh, I can't sleep and yet I'm so very tired x.x
getting over the emotional after effects of a fight with mom. How is it that no matter what heppens I always feel wrong. Even if she apologizes first and admits to being out of line I always feel like an utter bitch for causing the argument. An irresponsible dissapointment who makes her mother cry and wants to kill herself for hours even after making up.
Pathetic bitch.
but anyway I did accomplish alot today. Finally got around to cleaning the kitchen floor, then I went over to best buy and got Randy's B-day present, still must find out what Oniisan wants though his isn't 'till August 12th. With my gift certificates I got the box set of Boogiepop Phantom. Randy told me what it's about and it seemed right up my allie, plus it was pretty cool. It contains the four DVDs of the series, the soundtrack, a CD inspired by the soundtrack and cool pics. Not bad for 50$. I suppose I'll get around to watching it out at dad's or something when I need something to do.
I guess I'm going to go see T3 tomorrow with Jenny and then she'll sleep over which should be cool and interesting.
currently waiting until I collapse to go to bed.
I am proud of convincing Oniisan to take a sick day soon though. He swore, in english. The wrongness makes me shudder. He's taking Friday off though which is good or else he would be eaten by society and then I wouldn't have an Oniisan anymore and Randy would stop wanting to kill him. Surprisingly the idea of that seems strangly sad, as in I would never hope to see the day they stopped being violent and possesive towards each other. I love how they think, " it's ok for me to break his arm but if anyone else does they will get beaten down" or somewhere along those lines.
shit, I wish i could go get drunk right now.
getting over the emotional after effects of a fight with mom. How is it that no matter what heppens I always feel wrong. Even if she apologizes first and admits to being out of line I always feel like an utter bitch for causing the argument. An irresponsible dissapointment who makes her mother cry and wants to kill herself for hours even after making up.
Pathetic bitch.
but anyway I did accomplish alot today. Finally got around to cleaning the kitchen floor, then I went over to best buy and got Randy's B-day present, still must find out what Oniisan wants though his isn't 'till August 12th. With my gift certificates I got the box set of Boogiepop Phantom. Randy told me what it's about and it seemed right up my allie, plus it was pretty cool. It contains the four DVDs of the series, the soundtrack, a CD inspired by the soundtrack and cool pics. Not bad for 50$. I suppose I'll get around to watching it out at dad's or something when I need something to do.
I guess I'm going to go see T3 tomorrow with Jenny and then she'll sleep over which should be cool and interesting.
currently waiting until I collapse to go to bed.
I am proud of convincing Oniisan to take a sick day soon though. He swore, in english. The wrongness makes me shudder. He's taking Friday off though which is good or else he would be eaten by society and then I wouldn't have an Oniisan anymore and Randy would stop wanting to kill him. Surprisingly the idea of that seems strangly sad, as in I would never hope to see the day they stopped being violent and possesive towards each other. I love how they think, " it's ok for me to break his arm but if anyone else does they will get beaten down" or somewhere along those lines.
shit, I wish i could go get drunk right now.