please help me!!!
I'm going through something right now that can only be described as a spiritual crisis. I suddenly realize that I dont believe in God anymore, I dont know why, but I've completely abandoned my faith. I feel like all the things I was taught about god and the afterlife is just a made up story that people devised thousands of years ago to control people and keep them in check and that there are no real consequences after you die. I feel like when we die our body/spirit just disperses and becomes part of the earth again or maybe just turns into something else. This upsets me because I realized that the life I have right now is it and when its done its done, theres no more me. Everything i could have done in life i didnt do because i was scared of being punished and so i'm full of regret. I'm also upset because if thats true, then all that stuff about being reunited with my family and friends who passed will never happen either. I'm having a really hard time dealing with this, can anyone offer thier thoughts on this? What is God to you?