It's official.
Homosexuals are not allowed to marry in California, Arizona, or Florida.
Now we'll have to go back to separate drinking fountains and bathrooms, and fight for our rights to vote. We'll have to go to separate schools, to make sure being gay doesn't effect other people's children, because it's a disease, just like having colored skin. And gays are lesser people for loving the same gender, just like women aren't as smart as men because they're the weaker sex.
Because being who you are makes you a lesser person. And lesser people don't deserve the same rights as everyone else.
Because even if I love a woman, it's 'right' for me to marry a man that I don't, so that we can raise children who deny who they are just like I have. Because loving a person has to have rules and boundaries, just like everything else in the world. Because emotions are one for those things you can fit into your little box, contain it, and make it what you want it to be.
Being gay is wrong. Because that's the way I was raised, and having a friend I barely knew tell me he was with another person hovering behind him protectively while they waited for my response means nothing. That listening to him, getting to know him, and forcing myself to stop *thinking* and look at the person in front of me for who he was was meaningless. That hearing about how his mom treated him like he had a disease, how his brother stopped talking to him wasn't important. That all these years of growing and learning about myself, discovering that it's *okay* to think girls are pretty, that I can be happier if I'm honest about myself and who I find attractive was a pointless endevor.
Because I can't love someone who has long hair and a bright smile if they have curves. I'm only allowed to love the man who can give me children - even if I want to adopt. Because marriage is all about kids, and finding the perfect, 'natural' relationship.
So now I can't get excited over the prospect of Ellen DeGeneres getting married after waiting for so long. Those people who had legitmate marriage licenses? They'll get over it; it's just a piece of paper allowing them a basic right to exist on the same level as everyone else. My girlfriends don't matter, because who wants to date someone you can never be serious about?
My anger has nothing to do with the fact that I was born in California, or that I used to live there. It doesn't matter that I live in Idaho now, or that I plan to move to Arizona soon. What matters is that there are only *two states* in America where I'm allowed to exist as I am, without censorship.
Because
the gays were 'too poor' to raise enough money to convince people to go to the polls and save their rights.
We may have a black man going into the white house, but this country is still full of racism - we just gave it a different name.
Welcome to America. Land of the fucking free.
*I had to hunt find Yahoo's article declaring that the gays lost their right to marriage because they were poor again. Welcome to oppression everyone.