Still up too late and I know why ...
Today's been a pretty dramatic day. In a mostly good way: my region had our first write-in, which was just as much fun as the kick-off party. Everyone was super-friendly and supportive. There was lots of snacks and taking a break every hour for snacking and chatting. I consumed FAR too much sugar and caffeine, to the point that I ended up talking Brother into going to the gym instead of letting him sleep, just so I could burn off some energy working out.
But after all of the fun things, I finally convinced myself to lay down and try to sleep and realized that there's something that happened today that's still bothering me. And I need to get it off my chest.
Brother and I were on our way to drop me off at my write-in, and at some point we started talking about my 'nee-chan, who's an old friend of both of ours. Neither of us have heard from her in a very long time. She's always been bad at keeping up long-distance relationships, but this has been ... literally years since anyone's heard from her. Which sucks, but.
And then Brother made one of his usual 'It could be worse' comments he always does.
"It could be worse. You could have found an obituary for her."
I swear, my heart stopped. All I could think was 'Oh my god, Kim.'
I told him it wasn't funny, and he said he wasn't trying to be, because it's not. And I told him - twice - do not ever say that to me again. Ever.
I know he wasn't trying to be hurtful. I *know* that. But it still ...
My heart hurts, thinking about it. Thinking about her, and that moment when I first found out.
-Blinks back tears-
But after all of the fun things, I finally convinced myself to lay down and try to sleep and realized that there's something that happened today that's still bothering me. And I need to get it off my chest.
Brother and I were on our way to drop me off at my write-in, and at some point we started talking about my 'nee-chan, who's an old friend of both of ours. Neither of us have heard from her in a very long time. She's always been bad at keeping up long-distance relationships, but this has been ... literally years since anyone's heard from her. Which sucks, but.
And then Brother made one of his usual 'It could be worse' comments he always does.
"It could be worse. You could have found an obituary for her."
I swear, my heart stopped. All I could think was 'Oh my god, Kim.'
I told him it wasn't funny, and he said he wasn't trying to be, because it's not. And I told him - twice - do not ever say that to me again. Ever.
I know he wasn't trying to be hurtful. I *know* that. But it still ...
My heart hurts, thinking about it. Thinking about her, and that moment when I first found out.
-Blinks back tears-