A Million Little Pieces
I close my eyes and I let my body shut itself down and I let my mind wander.It wanders to a familiar place.A place I don't talk about or acknowledge exists.A place where there is only me.A place that I hate.I am alone.Alone here and alone in the world.Alone in my heart and alone in my mind.Alone everywhere,all the time,for as long as I can remember.
Alone with my family,alone with my friends,alone in a room full of people.Alone when I wake,alone through each awful day,alone when I finally meet the blackness.
I am alone in my horror.Alone in my horror.I don't want to be alone.I have never wanted to be alone.I fucking hate it.
I hate that I have no one to talk to,I hate that I have no one to call,I hate that I have no one to hold my hand,hug me,tell me everything is going to be all right.I hate that I have no one to share my hopes and dreams.I hate that I no longer have any hopes or dreams,I hate that I have no one to tell me to hold on,that I can find them again.
I hate that when I scream,and I scream bloody murder,that I am screaming into emptiness.I hate that there is no one to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn hot to stop screaming...
More than anything,all I have evere wanted is to be close to someone.
More than anything,all I have ever wanted is to feel as if I wasn't alone.
If I only knew how to stop feeling like this..
Alone with my family,alone with my friends,alone in a room full of people.Alone when I wake,alone through each awful day,alone when I finally meet the blackness.
I am alone in my horror.Alone in my horror.I don't want to be alone.I have never wanted to be alone.I fucking hate it.
I hate that I have no one to talk to,I hate that I have no one to call,I hate that I have no one to hold my hand,hug me,tell me everything is going to be all right.I hate that I have no one to share my hopes and dreams.I hate that I no longer have any hopes or dreams,I hate that I have no one to tell me to hold on,that I can find them again.
I hate that when I scream,and I scream bloody murder,that I am screaming into emptiness.I hate that there is no one to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn hot to stop screaming...
More than anything,all I have evere wanted is to be close to someone.
More than anything,all I have ever wanted is to feel as if I wasn't alone.
If I only knew how to stop feeling like this..