i've got to get me one of those coats
since i feel like i haven't been to a movie in forever i went to see the ministry of ungentlemanly warfare which was tense and violent (a lot of nazis get shot) altho not all the violence was particularly bloody and henry cavill had much better hair than he did in argylle but there was no opportunity for him to take his shirt off. i kind of knew the end of the story in that i know the allies win ww2 and the germans don't but i didn't know this particular chapter in the story so i kept wondering a. were they going to pull it off, and b. who was going to die. no spoilers. :D just that henry golding is in it and i didn't recognize him AT ALL.
previews were i saw the tv glow (perhaps), the strangers: chapter 1 (no), and borderlands (cate blanchett! jamie lee curtis! jack black! shit blowing up!).
the other thing i did today was get my comics and check out an hmart for cakes. one of the grad students in one of my groups at work is defending his thesis on thursday and i think the other students in the group are throwing him a little celebratory party afterwards. and of course there's cake. :D which i need to order except i couldn't figure out how. (one of the students found the cake but i couldn't tell where.) now i know. so there will be cake.
I walk to the podium wearing a blazer
I pause within the single syllable of “thank”
I am trying to make “having ideas of my own” a little more fun
Someone I loved wrote a play
about a broom
and we travelled to see it
I believe it was summer
I enter the problem wearing a bland blazer
many problems I have entered
wearing a blazer
what is my relationship to control or mistake
or autobiography or details
of interest
when there is nothing left what do we do
the self at once inescapable and fully absent
I shall do some research!
I throw a single finger into the air
and walk to the podium
the self has been the brackets the self at other times has been bracketed
I walk into the room to find you have made
a fort
*
true/false: having a process is at least as important as having a product
having a problem and having a process
are coequal
I will go on not having a self again
I will not go on again having a self
I can decide to not worry
about the self
I can decide to be sensible
would it help if I introduced sensory image or narrative
the archetype is again thick, bland, wet
a washcloth can be a site of ego collapse, warm
how far would you travel to visit the self
would you spend money on this journey
how open to erotic collapse are you
*
again in a dream a podium a basement a child a shopping mall
the child is walking down the stairs into the basement
how many aspects of self are elemental
I read a book and my child becomes this Agnes
character, ancestor, street name, a grave I visit on occasion
would you contact a person who had not invited or initiated contact
if that person was someone who had once known you to be or to have a self
in the pages of a notebook would you speculate
on the potential merits of losing track of the problem of the self
I would like to please you
to keep you here
“here” as another site of self another
speculation or collapse
would you wait for a child to fall asleep in a dream
Agnes, and she has
--Hannah Ensor, "Agnes, a sleep"
previews were i saw the tv glow (perhaps), the strangers: chapter 1 (no), and borderlands (cate blanchett! jamie lee curtis! jack black! shit blowing up!).
the other thing i did today was get my comics and check out an hmart for cakes. one of the grad students in one of my groups at work is defending his thesis on thursday and i think the other students in the group are throwing him a little celebratory party afterwards. and of course there's cake. :D which i need to order except i couldn't figure out how. (one of the students found the cake but i couldn't tell where.) now i know. so there will be cake.
I walk to the podium wearing a blazer
I pause within the single syllable of “thank”
I am trying to make “having ideas of my own” a little more fun
Someone I loved wrote a play
about a broom
and we travelled to see it
I believe it was summer
I enter the problem wearing a bland blazer
many problems I have entered
wearing a blazer
what is my relationship to control or mistake
or autobiography or details
of interest
when there is nothing left what do we do
the self at once inescapable and fully absent
I shall do some research!
I throw a single finger into the air
and walk to the podium
the self has been the brackets the self at other times has been bracketed
I walk into the room to find you have made
a fort
*
true/false: having a process is at least as important as having a product
having a problem and having a process
are coequal
I will go on not having a self again
I will not go on again having a self
I can decide to not worry
about the self
I can decide to be sensible
would it help if I introduced sensory image or narrative
the archetype is again thick, bland, wet
a washcloth can be a site of ego collapse, warm
how far would you travel to visit the self
would you spend money on this journey
how open to erotic collapse are you
*
again in a dream a podium a basement a child a shopping mall
the child is walking down the stairs into the basement
how many aspects of self are elemental
I read a book and my child becomes this Agnes
character, ancestor, street name, a grave I visit on occasion
would you contact a person who had not invited or initiated contact
if that person was someone who had once known you to be or to have a self
in the pages of a notebook would you speculate
on the potential merits of losing track of the problem of the self
I would like to please you
to keep you here
“here” as another site of self another
speculation or collapse
would you wait for a child to fall asleep in a dream
Agnes, and she has
--Hannah Ensor, "Agnes, a sleep"