in which i babble about being afraid of losing my job and also pie crust
thoroughly enjoyed izombie last night - seven minutes in and ravi was already THE BEST - but the ending, while probably inevitable, was a depressing as hell place to stop for winter hiatus. sigh.
work today was marked by a significant amount of make-work that i was half convinced i was doing wrong, and the sneaking suspicion that very soon someone is going to ask me to do something i have no idea how to do. >.< but i wanted this job so i could learn new things, so i shouldn't complain. (i might anyway, just with the knowledge that i asked for it.)
today's december babble is about overcoming fears, for apiphile, altho i'm not sure how much i can babble about it, because my general response to being afraid of something is usually to ignore it, and figure out a way around it that doesn't involve actually dealing with it. i mean, i bake from scratch [1] and i've never made a pie crust because i'm afraid of crust. this should tell you something about me. (aside from the fact that i bake from scratch and i like to make things hard for myself in the kitchen but i'm also a really lazy cook.) anyway. back in august when i was starting to wonder i was going to lose my job because my office wasn't going to need two word processors in boston, i emailed the woman in charge in new york and basically said "there's nothing to do and i'm bored, can i maybe pick up another random skill or something?" which led to her asking me (like a month later) if i wanted to be the tax admin, which i said yes to because by then i was freaking out that i was going to be let go and would have to move in with my parents. (because if i'd lost my job i'd have to move in with my parents. and put all my furniture - including my lovely new orange couch - and most of my stuff in their basement and probably have to get rid of all my plants. my poor plants.) which i guess is a roundabout way of saying that i was afraid of losing my job so i did one thing (well, two, if you count going to the temp agency four floors down) in my panic that just so happened to work out. i don't know if i was right to panic or not, but i like being the tax admin even tho i keep waiting to screw up, and i'm glad i had enough foresight to ask for something to do in august. sometimes i'm kind of smart.
that was possibly more babble about work and less babble about overcoming a fear. there are some fears i'm just never going to get over (besides pie crust). spiders, say. the shining. i don't think i overcome them as much as just learn to live with them.
in much more cheerful news, mad max: fury road won best picture and best director at the australian academy awards. i didn't even know there were australian academy awards. well done!
there's a star wars street view on googlemaps. you can sit in the millennium falcon, an x-wing, or a tie fighter. neat!
apparently someone's making yet another tarzan movie, which i only know because pics of alexander skarsgard as tarzan appeared on the internets. holy shitballs. he looks like he's been photoshopped.
a temple in texas (where else) built a sixteen-foot-tall menorah out of lego. that's a lot of lego. god is probably just hoping not to step on any of the bricks in the middle of the night.
[1] last year on our way home from thanksgiving in vermont, the fam and i stopped at the king arthur flour factory/store/cafe/cooking school, where i was confronted with more kinds of flour than i knew existed and also a MASSIVE WALL OF BOX MIXES. seriously. so many mixes. cakes and cookies and scones and biscuits and i don't even remember what-all, except there were a lot of them. sadly no cheese scone mix, tho. and i just looked at all those glorious boxes and thought "pfft, i can do that myself". and then i felt kind of arrogant. but that's the kind of baker i am! i want to make it myself, from scratch, without benefit of pre-mixed, er, mix. and yet i've never made a pie crust because i can buy them just as easily. i've also never made bread, but i'm not afraid of it, i'm just lazy. and i really like store-bought bread.
work today was marked by a significant amount of make-work that i was half convinced i was doing wrong, and the sneaking suspicion that very soon someone is going to ask me to do something i have no idea how to do. >.< but i wanted this job so i could learn new things, so i shouldn't complain. (i might anyway, just with the knowledge that i asked for it.)
today's december babble is about overcoming fears, for apiphile, altho i'm not sure how much i can babble about it, because my general response to being afraid of something is usually to ignore it, and figure out a way around it that doesn't involve actually dealing with it. i mean, i bake from scratch [1] and i've never made a pie crust because i'm afraid of crust. this should tell you something about me. (aside from the fact that i bake from scratch and i like to make things hard for myself in the kitchen but i'm also a really lazy cook.) anyway. back in august when i was starting to wonder i was going to lose my job because my office wasn't going to need two word processors in boston, i emailed the woman in charge in new york and basically said "there's nothing to do and i'm bored, can i maybe pick up another random skill or something?" which led to her asking me (like a month later) if i wanted to be the tax admin, which i said yes to because by then i was freaking out that i was going to be let go and would have to move in with my parents. (because if i'd lost my job i'd have to move in with my parents. and put all my furniture - including my lovely new orange couch - and most of my stuff in their basement and probably have to get rid of all my plants. my poor plants.) which i guess is a roundabout way of saying that i was afraid of losing my job so i did one thing (well, two, if you count going to the temp agency four floors down) in my panic that just so happened to work out. i don't know if i was right to panic or not, but i like being the tax admin even tho i keep waiting to screw up, and i'm glad i had enough foresight to ask for something to do in august. sometimes i'm kind of smart.
that was possibly more babble about work and less babble about overcoming a fear. there are some fears i'm just never going to get over (besides pie crust). spiders, say. the shining. i don't think i overcome them as much as just learn to live with them.
in much more cheerful news, mad max: fury road won best picture and best director at the australian academy awards. i didn't even know there were australian academy awards. well done!
there's a star wars street view on googlemaps. you can sit in the millennium falcon, an x-wing, or a tie fighter. neat!
apparently someone's making yet another tarzan movie, which i only know because pics of alexander skarsgard as tarzan appeared on the internets. holy shitballs. he looks like he's been photoshopped.
a temple in texas (where else) built a sixteen-foot-tall menorah out of lego. that's a lot of lego. god is probably just hoping not to step on any of the bricks in the middle of the night.
[1] last year on our way home from thanksgiving in vermont, the fam and i stopped at the king arthur flour factory/store/cafe/cooking school, where i was confronted with more kinds of flour than i knew existed and also a MASSIVE WALL OF BOX MIXES. seriously. so many mixes. cakes and cookies and scones and biscuits and i don't even remember what-all, except there were a lot of them. sadly no cheese scone mix, tho. and i just looked at all those glorious boxes and thought "pfft, i can do that myself". and then i felt kind of arrogant. but that's the kind of baker i am! i want to make it myself, from scratch, without benefit of pre-mixed, er, mix. and yet i've never made a pie crust because i can buy them just as easily. i've also never made bread, but i'm not afraid of it, i'm just lazy. and i really like store-bought bread.