beware the whine

[tsuki_no_bara]

last night i found a couple of recs for my bigbang - one of them i knew was out there and i wanted to thank the reccer, and the other i found kind of randomly, and the one i found kind of randomly was from someone who never commented on the fic. i'm glad she liked it enough to rec it to other people, but she couldn't tell me that?

i dunno. i don't think i was expecting any recs, much less two, so probably i shouldn't complain. about all i did expect was that total strangers would read my fic. and they did, so.

so i was thinking about my bigbang last night, and then a little bit today because another mostly-midwest period j2 au was posted this afternoon, and i don't know if i'll ever be able to write something like that again. not with that kind of research and ridiculous random detail. and it had an actual plot. in retrospect i'm not surprised i did it at all - for all my bitching and whining, i was bound and fucking determined to write that particular story for that particular reason - but i think i'll be surprised if i can do it again.

now i'm going to watch white collar, because white collar will cheer me up. hot boys in suits are always good for that.

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