spn - 4x21
(when the levee breaks)
the blood drinking grosses me out so much i can't even tell you. i can't believe i used to read and write vampire fic.
sammy, honey, it IS a drug intervention. the red lighting on sam inside the panic room vs the blue-green lighting on dean in the hallway is an interesting lighting choice. a little demonic spotlight for the demon blood addict.
alistair has got to be a hallucination. ...yep. i'm guessing all the hallucinations are going to be manifestations of sam's various thought processes. wee!sam is his conscience, i guess, and mary's the part of him that really believes he's doing the right thing for the right reasons, and that he's the only one who can kill lilith. because do you really think real!mary would seriously tell him he was strong for drinking demon blood to fight lilith, and only he can do it because dean's too weak? whereas i think somewhere deep inside sam, he does think he's strong enough to end the apocalypse but dean isn't.
i wonder if veiny!sam from last week's preview is going to be a withdrawal hallucination too.
"you're a dick these days." heh.
somehow i don't think dean giving himself over wholly to serve god and his angels is going to be a brilliant idea. probably not as bad as sam losing his soul and becoming a demon himself in order to kill lilith - assuming castiel is right about that - but still not a fabulous idea. i'm kind of curious what the consequences are going to be.
aaaaaand i was right about the veiny hallucination. how can bobby and dean hear him upstairs and thru that door? they need some morphine or something to knock sam out so he can maybe sleep thru some of it.
aw, poor sammy. i think he's an idiot for drinking ruby's blood in the first place, altho i get why he did it in context of the show, but watching the detox hallucinations is kinda sad. having his brother tell him he's a monster and has always been so, and that they're not really brothers and sam means nothing to him, is heartbreaking. even assuming sam figures out it's a hallucination and not what dean would say at all.
and he looks horrible. :(
why did castiel let him out? to turn him loose in the hopes he goes after lilith, so heaven can use him as a weapon and kind of an ally? and then, what? they'll just let him go? won't dean be pissed when he finds out.
oh man, this is so sad, bobby and sam. and to add insult to injury, sam hotwires the impala. man, when dean catches up to him, dean is going to kill him.
sam's never going to believe dean locked him away out of love and to protect him. my guess is this episode ends with dean finding sam at the motel, both of them beating the crap out of each other, and dean telling sam "if you walk out that door don't even think about coming back." which means we'll get one more episode to either resolve that or not, and hopefully not go into s5 with the boys so very at odds. at least that's how i hope this one ends, because i don't want that in the season finale.
ya think lilith eats babies? so young and sweet and tender and innocent. yum!
sam, you've lied to your brother too many times about too many big things for him to trust you. nice that you want to fix it, understandable that you're not sure you can.
sam can separate what he does from who (or what) he is, and dean can't. but i think they've always been that way - sam could compartmentalize and dean couldn't. or sam learned how and dean didn't. but in any case, sam really does think he can drink ruby's blood and get strong enough to kill lilith, and his conscious mind can split that off from whatever it might turn him into, so as far as he's concerned he can do this and still remain human. whereas for dean there's no difference between drinking demon blood and being a demon. so they were always going to misunderstand each other on this, just because they have different ideas about using a weapon and becoming a weapon, and what that weapon does to you.
(and from dean's pov, sam really has lied too many times about too many things to have earned his trust now. even if sam is right about ruby - that she really is trying to help them and isn't just playing him - and honestly wants dean's help and really does want to save the world together. dean is never going to go with him, not with ruby.)
i'm so glad this isn't the season finale, let me just say. i'm so glad we get some kind of resolution (at least as much resolution as you get in a finale) next week. altho if they kill lilith and stop the apocalypse, what are they going to do next season? and if they don't kill lilith, then what? how are they going to deal with sam going all demony? and how much of a resolution are we going to get, anyway....
overall a really good episode, altho the boys break my heart. :( i don't care what they do about the apocalypse and the breaking seals and the mytharc, as long as the ptb can get the boys back together. i hate thinking they've passed the point of no return. i won't watch that show.