Possible Update and...Meme?
Mmnn...interesting...
1) If you could go on a date with any fictional character without consequences, who would it be?
2) Who was your first confusing fictional crush?
3) What talent do you wish you had?
4) If I wrote you a fic, what would it be?
5) Favorite weird fandom term or internet meme?
6) What was the last book you read?
7) What zodiac sign are you?
8) If you had to create an original character for your favourite fandom, what would they look like?
9) What squicks you?
10) If you saw one of my novels in a bookstore, would you buy it?
11) What is your favorite song (YouTube links are groovy)?
12) Playstation, Nintendo or Xbox?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Weirdest thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one normal, somewhat boring fact about you.
16) Do you have any random bishoujo/bishounen lounging in your closet?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color socks are you wearing?
23) Black or blue ink?
24) Favourite underloved fandom?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) Make up your own!
27) One place you hate to go?
28) Do you believe in robots... in disguise?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve in fiction?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you read romance novels?
34) Make up your own!
35) Do you believe in faeries?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
Probably no one's gonna fill this out since....I doubt anyone comes here anyway (so why am I starting livejournal again...? Ah. Right. Keeping my updates secret. I don't explain the dreadful process on fanfic lest people feel bad > <)
So anyway, Incurable 02 is still on-going. I'm gonna scan in some pics I drew which I should've done so months ago, and then post 'em here plus on deviantart.
But Incurable is killing me. I'm soooo stuck. I know what I want to write, but I don't know how to express it! *clutches head* See, when I have very few reviews, I get sad. 'Cuz I spend so much effort into writing a chapter, and then for what? For naught? Well, not exactly, but still. I thought registered ppl could understand the pain of struggling between school life, cca life and this writing life (for me, I'm not struggling. I'm suffocating) and they do. But still too few reviews. I'm not stingy. I just want to know if people can recognise the effort. Incurable scored six reviews and you won't believe it, but I cried 'cuz ppl recognised the effort put into it.
Yeah, so I don't exactly voice out my feelings on fanfic. If ppl know, and they review 'cuz they know, then what's the point? I don't prefer the way of handouts. So I voice my thoughts here, since I know nobody would come and read. It's like private, but still public.
I'm already busy enough with school. Seven hours. And we have cca. Most of the cca are three hours long. Some of us have tuition or other personal life stuff. I have my third language class, lasting two hours. By the time I reach home, it's late evening. The only time I reach home at 3 would be on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. And since I have a leg condition, I'm excused from my cca. The first thing I do when I get home would be to think about what to write. I don't do my homework and in the end I get screwed. I forget to ice my knees and do the necessary stretching so that it can aid in my recovery. Now my condition hasn't improved. But what of it? Two reviews at the most.
Once i wondered if all this is really worth it. Never once have I thought of giving up writing because it's my passion. But now I'm thinking if I should go into seclusion and concentrate on my studies. The pain of the struggle is affecting my mindset badly. I wonder where Fate will bring me from here. I can only pray and confide in God my worries and troubles.
Can I cry now?