Mitral Valve Prolapse
So, I've got the genetic heart disorder that I didn't realize was genetic until I looked it up on the internet last Wednesday. My mom started having problems about 5 or 6 years ago and they diagnosed her to have mitral valve prolapse. But, she failed to tell me that my grandma had it too, which in turn means that I will (and do) have it and my sister will probably too. And now, at the ripe old age of 21, I'm showing signs and symptoms of it. 21!!! Grandma was 50 and mom was near 40. Why can't it happen when I'm that old?! I don't need this in my life right now! I have enough stress as it is trying to do schoolwork, karate, security, AURS, ambassador stuff, a relationship (which isn't really that stressful, I love you babe), and nursing school applications! I mean, come on! I can't take this. I can't go thru a kata without feeling like I'm gonna pass out. I can't walk up stairs at my usual pace b/c my heart rate spikes to 120. I get lightheaded everytime I stand up and I'm exhausted all the time. Being alive is too hard for my body to take right now! This is so not cool and very very upsetting.