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May 11, 2005 11:19

tst this rnbw (1:05:43 AM): hunny....i love you ( Read more... )

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anonymous May 12 2005, 22:44:37 UTC

single is shitty but it is also a good thing because we aren't taking the first person that comes along. they have to earn us. what do you have to offer me? are you good enough for me? are you worth my time? put yourself first. stand up for yourself. don't let shitty people who won't make you happy or love you or take care or you or think of you all the time get in your way. it sucks being single. but now look what you can do. you can step back and see who's out there, or do what i'm doing and wait forever until HOPEFULLY someone comes along. i love you. stay strong. stay SMART!
ps. don't pick up girls (or boys hehe) at bars/clubs or don't be picked up... this is my SUGGESTION. you don't know them or their intention or their background and it really sucks and messes with your mind when you finally realize what went on and it wasn't at all what you thought. people are messed up. watch out. be smart.
*michelle*

Correction... tstthisrnbw May 13 2005, 01:21:22 UTC

I'm just about having fun right now. I'm not in the mood for settling down with someone right now. I want to meet people and have a good time. I don't care what they want to offer me besides a good friendship and someone to make me laugh. I don't care what their intentions are or where I'm "picked up" at. If I go home with someone for a night, I go home with someone for a night. If I decide to make something more out of a friendship, then I will. The past year has taught me a lot - and that is not to give my heart away to someone who doesn't deserve it - to forget the never ending search for the right one - to have fun. After all, isn't that what college is about? Having fun and learning things about yourself? Well, I've learned lots of things about myself...now I'm ready for the fun.

I really do appreciate the suggestions. But this is what I want right now. And being single doesn't have to be shitty...you have to make it fun - who wants someone who doesn't have fun? Don't take this as a being defensive...I'm just being me.

Re: Correction... anonymous May 13 2005, 13:12:43 UTC

well i guess after being used twice, once by you, and the second time by a girl that picked me up at common ground who made it seem like she liked me and wanted to be friends, etc. it just was complicated and messed with my head and heart. that is what having fun can do to people. so i guess you are probably on the other side of the coin and are acting like her "i was just having fun."
another fucking suggestion: don't get someones phone number unless you intend on calling them. tell them your intentions or non-intentions so you don't mess with their heads/hearts.
or maybe i'm just a sucker like that.
*m*

Re: Correction... anonymous May 13 2005, 15:53:10 UTC

correction to that. i was used 3 times.

Re: Correction... tstthisrnbw May 13 2005, 17:54:36 UTC

And tell me again how I used you? I did nothing but love you from the moment we met. And I waited...I waited for you to fall in love...and out...and back in...and back out. So don't tell me I used you, cuz you used me. You played with my head. You made me cry almost as much as you made me smile. The only time we were good was when we were together. When we were apart, you were never happy, you didn't love me when we were apart. You couldn't deal. You know what? I'm sorry I ever fell in love. Cuz you've fucked me over. I feel like a huge hole has been left in my chest. I'm afraid to fall in love now b/c of you. I don't dare trust anyone b/c of you. You really REALLY have no idea what you've done to me.

Re: Correction... anonymous May 13 2005, 23:20:35 UTC

wow i'm so glad this turned into a you and i fight when all i wanted to do was protect you from being hurt or protect others from being hurt. thank you for telling me i was a waste of your time and you hate me and i wasn't worth it. i appreciate it. cause i love and loved you and i'm sorry that i have never had a relationhip or long distance relationship before and i didn't know what to do. and don't tell me that i used you cause i didn't. and you told me that you used me so don't tell me you didn't. remember that!? remember when you told me you using me in the beginning and i cried on your bed? and about falling in love. how the hell can i make myself fall in love with someone? it doesn't work that way. just because you fell in love with me before i did jesus. just like you can't help falling in love you can't help not falling in love either. so don't blame me. stop blaming me.
...AND YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME...

Re: Correction... tstthisrnbw May 14 2005, 00:14:17 UTC

I was angry and blowing off steam. I understand that you are trying to protect me. And I thank you for that. So I apologize for all this shit. But sometimes I feel like no matter what I saw, you will always have something better to say. The only reason why I replied to your first was b/c single doesn't have to be shitty. You have to make it fun. That's all I was trying to say. No you weren't a waste of my time...I had a ton of fun. And unfortunately, a lot of tears. It was a learning experience for us both. You automatically took offense to the reply when it was not intended for it. And I took offense to the used thing. I didn't use you...no one goes into a relationship thinking it's gonna last. If so, then they are crazy.

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