It's 1:00 A.M.
Yet again it is 1:00 A.M. I am up for no particular reason. I am extremely tired due to the fact that I was out in the sun all day at a track meet. I sucked...again. I feel bad not contributing to the team and not scoring any points. I wish I was actually able to compete. Sadly enough, I'm still one of the better sprinters on the team, which isn't saying much. Track is different this year because there are no real leaders in the sprint group so I've been mingling more with the distance group at meets because those guys are pretty cool.
I've decided I really need to start over. This whole thing has messed up my head pretty bad, but I've figured out that it's not going to happen. I really just wish that things would actually work out the way I want them to work out for once. I'm so envious of what everyone has and what I can't attain. Others make it seem so easy, but it is definitely not for me. Life is rad; I need to get used to that.
I'm going to bed. It's late.
I've decided I really need to start over. This whole thing has messed up my head pretty bad, but I've figured out that it's not going to happen. I really just wish that things would actually work out the way I want them to work out for once. I'm so envious of what everyone has and what I can't attain. Others make it seem so easy, but it is definitely not for me. Life is rad; I need to get used to that.
I'm going to bed. It's late.