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So I've been in a pretty shitty mood this whole past week, and I think I am just NOW getting over it. Im glad because I didnt like being a jerk. Christmas is coming up, and I'm really excited to make and give everyone their gifts, it feels good to give people things.
I was walking down the hall, and I was trying to figure out how I could go on class period without looking at ANYONE because whenever I look at someone, I judge them, and usually its not the nicest judgement, and I figure if I just dont look at anyone, then I wont be able to judge them. I stared at my feet the whole time down the halls and when I got to my class, I tried not to think about anyone, I know that it is normal to judge people, but I hate when I do it, I guess im just a terrible person. This only worked for 1 class period, after that, I would try to look at my feet or stare off not thinking about what goes on in our school, and what the people right infront of my face are like, or how they act. I wonder if the kids who say, "I dont care what people think about me" that seems to me that they want to make people think they are okay with who they are, but I have this feeling that they are the ones who care the most. I could be wrong, I guess thats just how I interpret things. On tuesday after the bell rang, I was walking to my locker, and I saw poor Amber there for Anime club standing where she normally stands on tuesdays, that morning I heard on the announcements, that anime club was cancelled yet again, and I thought, this is the fourth time she has come and it was cancelled. why was anime club cancelled? what's the point of saying there's an anime club if there are no meetings for amber to attend? this is why I dont join any clubs.
Today, we had to pick our social studies courses for next year, I decided that for sure I want to take Psychology 1 and 2 and Law. I also want to take sociology poli sci, and Ad US <-- that one is going to be a bitch to take, so im not sure about that one. Today there was the drivers ed meeting.. the one I didnt attend to, seeing as how I suck and was born on a shitty day, I have to wait allllllll summer. :( I have regained my love for the distillers, and tsunami bomb, I forgot for a lil bit how amazing they both were.. and the blood brothers, I really like them.
I really dont have much more to say, hopefully, I'll start updating more often.
I was walking down the hall, and I was trying to figure out how I could go on class period without looking at ANYONE because whenever I look at someone, I judge them, and usually its not the nicest judgement, and I figure if I just dont look at anyone, then I wont be able to judge them. I stared at my feet the whole time down the halls and when I got to my class, I tried not to think about anyone, I know that it is normal to judge people, but I hate when I do it, I guess im just a terrible person. This only worked for 1 class period, after that, I would try to look at my feet or stare off not thinking about what goes on in our school, and what the people right infront of my face are like, or how they act. I wonder if the kids who say, "I dont care what people think about me" that seems to me that they want to make people think they are okay with who they are, but I have this feeling that they are the ones who care the most. I could be wrong, I guess thats just how I interpret things. On tuesday after the bell rang, I was walking to my locker, and I saw poor Amber there for Anime club standing where she normally stands on tuesdays, that morning I heard on the announcements, that anime club was cancelled yet again, and I thought, this is the fourth time she has come and it was cancelled. why was anime club cancelled? what's the point of saying there's an anime club if there are no meetings for amber to attend? this is why I dont join any clubs.
Today, we had to pick our social studies courses for next year, I decided that for sure I want to take Psychology 1 and 2 and Law. I also want to take sociology poli sci, and Ad US <-- that one is going to be a bitch to take, so im not sure about that one. Today there was the drivers ed meeting.. the one I didnt attend to, seeing as how I suck and was born on a shitty day, I have to wait allllllll summer. :( I have regained my love for the distillers, and tsunami bomb, I forgot for a lil bit how amazing they both were.. and the blood brothers, I really like them.
I really dont have much more to say, hopefully, I'll start updating more often.