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Hmm. "Unofficially dating". What exactly does that mean anyway? Friends with benefits? Fuck-buddies? Or just what it says: all the actual motions of dating, and just know one knowing?
I'm not so sure how I feel about it...in some ways, it makes me feel kind of...dirty. Knowing that I can sleep with someone that I care about, but knowing that I don't have a right towards any expectations. I can't say "I love you" and expect the words to be returned. I can't kiss and expect that the kiss will go both ways.
I'm happy that I get to have the one I care about in my life...but when exes are brought up, I have no right to question them. A glorified best friend? That may be all that I am. But even then, I don't regret a single action. Maybe I really am a horrible person.
I'm not so sure how I feel about it...in some ways, it makes me feel kind of...dirty. Knowing that I can sleep with someone that I care about, but knowing that I don't have a right towards any expectations. I can't say "I love you" and expect the words to be returned. I can't kiss and expect that the kiss will go both ways.
I'm happy that I get to have the one I care about in my life...but when exes are brought up, I have no right to question them. A glorified best friend? That may be all that I am. But even then, I don't regret a single action. Maybe I really am a horrible person.